Well! I CAN'T! I tried so hard but I just can't!! It put me such in a state!!! I feel like I'm the weird one but in my heart they are...
Yesterday, I came back from my raw-vegan picnic, I felt very empowered with my conviction. Feeling that I'm in the right path. When I arrived home my boss's parents were over (BIG HUGE MEAT EATER!! I never saw anything like it... sometimes they will have 3 kinds of meat in one meal) and of course they were cooking the biggest piece of meat I ever saw.. Right away I left the kitchen, waited my turn to make my meal... but you still wonder what they touched.. the oil??? the spices??? the drawers??? did they washed their hands after handling the meat (I noticed they don't do often) and AH!! firts thing I see when it was my turn to use the kitchen: a piece of fat was on the floor.... got the lady to pick it up... but you wonder..... what is it that I don't see!!!
Today, the little boy came over to me and gave me a receipt telling me it was mine... I looked... the big piece of meat was actually a lamb's leg..... F***!!!! I never heard of such a thing!!! a baby lamb leg.... what is next!!! Tonight they did one of their famous barbecu... I ate alone outside crying eating well trying to eat my beautifull raw tomatoe cream soup which I finished with the tip of my lips... not understanding.. what is wrong in their mind.. and why am I alone!
I feel so mad at them! But it's not my place to scream at them, to shake them and put sens (which is more awareness) in their mind! Mostly, because my boss is part of that... he knows dam well why I'm vegan. I gave him all the informations I have but he did his choice, which I'm trying to respect. OH GOD! IT's HARD!
I feel stupid! I thought I was strong enought to live in a meat enviroment... knowing that I was not the one eating it... but I'm giving up... I'm moving soon in a little appartment next to the house... but I might have other moments that meat will be around... I want to respect them and not let them know it does affect me... but right now its the opposite...
How do you handle it?

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