Wanted to "check in" & update... After trying to hot tea & garlic toast my "cold" away, w/o real results, & reading (continuing to read- far too crazy long for 1 day reading quest!) my new copy of Live Food Factor, i decided to go the rr again. I have been 100% real since friday. The truly fantastic part is i've not eaten a thing- not even blendeds!- between 6pm & 8am each day! That is major because that is my typical binge pd. Noticed changes as early as saturday- jeans fit better on my thighs & i could zip them up w/o killing myself, cleansing began w/break outs on my forehead & arms, breath was not dreaded "morning" breath either. Sunday cleansing went further w/am bm that was awesome! Tmi but it was effortless & extensive & made me laugh. & made me lighter. Enough of that... Today is monday. This weekend's gotten me all giddy. Plan on journal-ing 1x/week. Will weigh myself 1x/wk as well. Want to wait 'til friday for my 1st weigh-in. Starting wt was 180-ish lbs. 2 wks ago, give or take. Love

Forgot to mention- hucks arrived yesterday! They're beautiful little things. Also awaiting the hazels- should be here in the next couple weeks... Love

Thx, BB. Emotionally, i am doing well, tho i still gaze out the window wanting to see her where i feel she should be. Physically, i am dealing w/a cold partially brought on by the change of seasons, part by my emo-eating. I'm catching on ;o) & am having a smoothie for breakfast: 2 oranges/4 nanas/1c fr strawberries. Ry just requested some so i'll be having more! Hope to get the dishes done so i can make juice today. Thx again for everyone's sympathy. Love

Thx. Still have a lot of sudden sad spells popping up. Yesterday i needed a big change so i tore down the shades & curtains in our big kitchen windows. So today, w/the sunlight puddling on the floor, i can't help but think of Nade soaking it in- & how wonderful warm cats smell. Hub will p/u her urn from the crematorium saturday. I've a collection of sorts- Silver & now Nade. 2 urns. Okee, woke @ 8:30-ish. Had blended watermelon around 12:30. New stress: in-laws visiting w/niece this weekend. Stress helper: was sure to drink gobs of water yesterday so i didn't "go nuts" gorge-wise after supper & was able to study a section in my paradise book. Ahhh... I wish i could share a pic of my nasturtiums- now that nothing else is in the garden they've taken off! I may plant a seperate bed next year. Love

Nadezhda-Joon, beloved companion, she-who-must-be-obeyed, felinus magnificense, died saturday, 18 october, 2008 at 3:40 pm est (usa). She was purring up to the end! I love her and will miss her horribly...

Brekky was 1/3 of a watermelon- supah dupah- whilst watching Greatest American Hero. I had the biggest crush on William Katt when i was 5-ish... Nade's sleeping w/hub. Love

I am looking forward to tomorrow... all raw will be so groovy. Goody. The girls know something's different w/Nadezhda. Even The Pauper's keeping vigil- splitting her time w/me & Nuzh, but not too close to her. Had a hemp/orange/fr nana smoothie. I have to have a salad later. Total nec. W/some romas, avo, lemon, hmmm. Love

Meesau meesau (William's version of "nice to meet you"). Delighting in a 7 nana/parsley gs. Tonight is our FINAL international night! Yay! Kitty news is not getting better. She seems to have lost her vox completely- she was getting squeakier ea day & now her mc'mrow is gone. Hub & i always said she was scottish w/her strong mc'mrow & her tweedy coat. Today, as every day, i opened the door so she could go survey her kingdom. She sat in the doorway so i picked her up & walked her about, waiting for a wriggle so i'd put her down. Today's too chilly for her & i'm glad she didn't wrig until i brought her in & made the bed & her spot up. By the end she's going to think her name's "O, Nuzh" because that's what i say ea time i look upon her. Cats are entirely too beautiful & auspicious to be looked "at". They must be looked "upon". Asap i'll try to post her pic. It may not be 'til we go to ny @ the end of the year. Love

Niqi- i understand the need to slow down. Whip yrself up something smooth & sit & sip & smile. 2 minutes of a sit- do it, you! Lol. Must try the fromage w/pignoles, sounds yum! Love

Cukey-dew! Mmm. Had 3/4 of a pineapple for breakfast. Now i'm enjoying about 600ml of cukey-dew. Thinking of juicing carrot or v-gr8 & popping it in the freezer for tomorrow, just in case. Maybe i'll make the boys some lemon aid (lemon juice sweetened w/apple juice) since the juicer is out... Love

Thx, Neet. Not that i'm ?ing the master of the universe or anything but 2 things bother me slightly: 1- i've found no mention of our furry darlings coming back w/us to paradise. So i can only assume that this is the only life-course for them. 2 is nothing to do w/1 & will certainly be explored some other time. The kitchen stinks of shrimp! I must clean it up so i can make cukey-dew later! Was reading in Neet's journey how you can dim cravings for non-ideal foods by upping intake of ideal foods: ie, celery for nori/seaweed. Plan on trying that next WEEK!!! We're on our last continent- so looking forward to days of true food...  YAY! Love

Carm- if i could i would! Still using mobile for web connect. Dreadful. Hope things are swimmy for you:o) love

Welcome, Claire! Enjoy every fresh, ripe gobble & bite ) It helps me if i plan my daily eats & premake certain things. At least 1 each gs, seed/fruit smoothie, & juice daily helps me also. Oh, & keeping my nanas in stock... & oranges & celery & pears & apples &... I also pre-grind 1c of flax & keep it in the freezer w/the rest of my small seeds (whole flax, hemp, pumpkin, sesame...). Have fun! Love

Doing badly w/food currently. Emo eating pretty constantly as my old girl (cat) is on the way out. I so want her to go as gracefully as she lived. She's always been very fastidious but she's unable to be as thorough as her balance is off & she just cannot move those old bones the way they used to. My 1st cat, my old man, was 17 when my dad had him put to sleep- i was in the af out in kansas so i wasn't able to say good-bye. Now i'm just wanting Nade to be comfy & happy which means she can sit in the midst of us as we eat our meals- on the table! My mom is apalled- i told her i'd let her sit on the table when she gets to Nade's age... Hub keeps trying to make me feel better: "she's had a great life- she's been given a lot of luv for a lot of years"- etc. Yesterday morn she got in bed w/us & is here again. I try to get her to purr amap because i still think its a good measure of a cat's happiness but also because she has a great rumbly purr that i am going to miss horribly. Hub talked to the boys about her going soon & that they are allowed to be sad & everything & how it may affect me since i've had her so long- almost 2x as long as i've had hub/boys! I was lamenting to hub that we still have Princess & The Pauper & that i don't want to go thru this 2x more. He said "are you saying we're not allowed to have anymore cats?" me: "i'm saying no more pets period unless they outlive me." him: "i'll get you an elephant then." which means he knows i'm a sucker for anything w/paws & i'm full o' stuff when i declare no more! On to dietary concerns- going to have a gs in the later am... parsley, nanas, fr bbs. May make some raw cream of zuke soup for lunch. We shall see... Love

There are plastic moulds you can put on young squashes so that, by the time they're grown they make a face. Love