At the risk of sounding dramatic, three months ago my life as I knew it fell apart. My marriage nearly ended (at the time I thought it was certainly over) and my health was lacking (cancer, heart condition, hair falling out, etc).
I left home very young and have had little contact with my family since. We had just moved to our area a few months before that, so I didn't have any sort of support network. I was alone. I was dying. And I was scared. I had basically hit a brick wall at high speed. It was time to make changes...
I began from the ground up. First of all I put out a cry to God/Universe/Goddess/Source that I needed some help, I certainly couldn't do things on my own. Next I cut back everything that I put into my mouth except water and then researched where to go from there. (Found information about eating living foods and cutting out the dead ones - which is actually how I ate years ago.) Stopped taking any medication/drugs/chemicals.
I then started peeling back the layers of everything I believe. Evaluating. Assessing. Getting rid of all the baggage.
When I got married and had children I compromised so much that I believed and held to be true. Bit-by-bit, day-by-day. Mainly because it is what 'should be done' in our western society. So the need to be a fellow 'Jones' went out the window first.
I wrote a list of all the things I wanted for my life in the future. Energy was at the top of the list. Energy to learn, have adventures, be a good mum, have great friendships, etc. Every day that I am eating raw vegan, I feel that energy growing and flowing through me.
I still have a ways to go, and other life changes to make. We are building our marriage up from the ground and re-focusing on what's important. (As I mentioned yesterday, my husband has agreed to go raw vegan with me for 3 mths and then see what happens then. My hope is that he will feel so good that he will commit to stick it out for life. However, I am very grateful for just 3 mths if that's what happens.)
The next big decision we face is a move. We are on a farm. While we are putting organic food into our bodies, growing our own chemical free vegetables and fruit - around us is being sprayed with lots of chemicals. My husband is sometimes the person who has to do that. Neither of us have ever agreed with commercial farming practices, but my husband loves machinery operating and engineering, so it has always been this or mining. I chose farming - the lesser of two evils???
We have looked for years for organic farm work, but they are either small or pay very little (not enough for a family to live off.)
I read the book, The Secret, a few months ago. I have been practising some of the ideas from it for years and reading it gave me new motivation. So I have put it out there that we find a job that suits our values, lifestyle, goals, etc. Is good for us, those around us and the planet. Just keeping an eye out for the sign posts now.
On a health note - heart condition has gone. Cancer is shrinking. Hair is abundant. Weight is coming off.