Hi all I might jump in here and add my 2 cents if thats ok

Nothing saddens me more than hearing others not loving themselves. You know why well I fell victim to this and also my mother too.
If she loved herself she would be alive today or at least lived longer than she did. I have no doubt about it.
Berry I love you so much. I say this from love that what you said about loving others and having your focus on them shows you love yourself is crap. My mum did this and now she is gone to a better place but has left me and my sister with a lifetime of pain not having her hear with us. Whats going to happen when your kids grow up and have left home and and maybe in your old age Andrew has gone before you.
Are you just going to be empty because there is no one at home to love on an every day basis so you wont feel can love yourself.
This might seem harsh but its really because I have lived what your saying and seen many not just my mother do this and feel any emptiness inside.
Its like we protect ourselves whats really going inside when we focus all our love on others.
I always say we need to love ourselves first to really love others. Otherwise its a big mask we show the world and ourselves to show everything is ok.
I dont just say this to Berry but if you can not look in the mirror and say 'I love you' to yourself. I would suggest taking some time out from your day maybe somewhere where you can relax and really just be with yourself and write down on a nice piece of paper the answers to these questions.
-What could I love myself for if I really wanted too?
-What are my gifts that God (or who you believe spiritually)has given me, to give to myself and others?
-What can I do or give to myself regularly so I can give to others healthfully?
Then maybe read this from time to time and add to it when you have something to add.

Hopefully you will be able to look into that mirror and say 'I love you' with a great big smile.

Love Sacha

Ps I thank you Berry for sharing what you said in your post. By sharing how you feel we can help others. I love Berry. Sending you a great big hug and everyone else too.
PPs I might of completely missed the point and be wrong. If so I do apologise.