Gosh sorry it's been so long, I have actually been trying to wean myself off the computer as I have been spending too much time on it. Another addiction I am afraid.

Nails are going well still, food is not too bad. More later, just wanted to say hello

It's later on in the day and we managed a 15 minute walk inbetween large drops of rain, we got home in time to miss the downpour. Not complaining though I love the rain, especially the sound of it pelting down on the farmhouse roof when I am in bed all snuggly.

Food has been good. Sultanas, organic apple, organic banana, figs,and for tea I will have a smoothy with apricots, carob and banana.


I also made sure to water the plants in the greenhouse today becuase we are growing rocket and greens in there during the winter and I just love to eat our own produce. Rocket is so gorgeous, I have also been trotting around the farm looking for dandelions to put in my juice.

Feeling quite up and am proud to announce that my nails are getting long and they feel strong too.

More later love this site,
Franny xx

 

Made it through the first night alone without the urge to pig out, in fact if anything I was quite restrained. I know I have 18 months of this on/off working abroad situation with my husband but after all this time I have gotten used to it. I'll never like it, but I accept it. I used to cry buckets when he went but now I look at it from a different point of view, it's a time to learn more resilience, looking after the fruit trees, chickens, ducks and of course Morgaine by myself. I have two cats looking after me too, climbing all over the keyboard and chewing my hair..I also get a queen size bed to myself so spreading out is quite nice. Lots of time to read after Morgaine goes to bed at night..so it's not all bad...ask me again in a few weeks to see if my thoughts have changed.

I am reading Victoria Boutenko's ' 12 steps to raw ' at the moment. Some of it I like, but some of it comes across a little bit sanctimonious-sounding. it has a lot of good ideas though adn i would recommend it to others.

Just eaten 5 organic carrots and hommus. I just love it so much. I can't believe that garbage I used to buy from the supermarket could also be called hommus ! What a difference.

I am feeling a bit stressed at the minute as I am on ABC TV next week and the week after on a show called ' The Einstein Factor '. It was taped ages ago so I'd forgotten about it, but I don't know if I can bear watching myself...I feel mightily embarrassed just thinking about it.

Might go and drink a glass of water, am dying to go for a walk but it keeps raining on and off..I knwo Morgaine would love to go out too.

More later,
Franny

Ok I dare finally start contributing again, back on track.  I am on my own now with our daughter. My beloved is in Sydney and heading off for Phildadelphia soon. I have to be responsible for myself. I am feeling quietly calm now, but hope the loneliness doesn't set in too soon

Foodwise, a healthy raw breakfast cereal, strawberries, an orange, tahini and some seed crackers. I can't tell you the relief at getting back on the wagon. I felt so crap eating cooked food, both physically but totally mentally...like I was so disgusted with myself. I can't wait to go to the health food bulkstore tonight.

I started the day with a 40 minute powerwalk and was pleased that it woke me up. I had an early start at 4.00am so I needed something.

Anyway, I'll be back soon,
better do some work,
Franny xx

I have been too ashamed to post these last couple of days. It's like I have completely lost it. I just want to eat very bad comfort food and lots of it. The only redeeming quality I have shown over the weekend is that I have exercised every day to some extent. I hate it when I lose it totally, and i have.

Any kindly suggestions and support would be of great benefit,
Franny xx

Yesterday I ate a fair bit of bread, a lot of date nut torte, some rice and home grown salad, and a tiny bit of lamb....it was a fairly abysmal day really.

It's Saturday morning now and I have had my lovely raw cereal, and have just made a weird type of hommus using peas, looks lovely but tastes a little odd, but passable. Next week I am going to go and do a huge shop at the wholefoods store, I am quite excited about it.

I filed my nails last night, excited ? Yes ! Am I weird...yes !

I also drunk a cup of the Chinese herbal tea that is supposed to ' clear you out ' last night. My friend said I'd never be off the pot, but it is yet to really have any effects...still I am open to any ideas.

More later, I should go for a walk.

Franny

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Last night I discovered a problem with date nut torte. It's some darn yummy I ate too much of it ! anyway I also ate a lot of fruit bread and jam...naughty. I ate some jelly snakes, I didn't enjoy them, but i did it just to let myself know I could have them if I wanted.

It's Friday morning and all is well. Had my buckwheat cereal with macadamias, pepitas, sunflower seeds, apricots and soy, and it was amazing. I put a bit of carob powder in and had raw coco-pops..only 10 x better. I had carrot and apple juice and it was to die for.

Getting to work early is a great thing ! I had a bracing icy 40 minute walk and felt great. I had colour in my cheeks, and felt alive. Couple that with my ' fat  pants ' feeling a little baggy and I am stoked.

More later !
Franny

Hello there and welcome. This is the best site ever ! I have been a member for only a couple of weeks, but you have come to the right place, for friendly helpful and interesting advice.

I am not able to give you any advice much on MS, but I can give you a reassurance that a RAW lifestyle is going to be of great benefit to your health. Your migraine I am sure is a simptom of detox, hang in there, it will pass soon.

Keep on keeping on,

Franny xx

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It's Thursday morning and all is well. Had my buckwheat cereal with macadamias, pepitas, sunflower seeds, apricots and soy, and it was amazing. I followed that witha peppermint herbal tea and a kiwi fruit, ginger, carrot, silverbeet, apple and celery juice. It was a bit weird to taste, but not offensive and I felt it ' doing me good ' as my mum would say.

Nails are in fine form, mood is in great form !

Lunch is a green mixed salad with seeds and red pepper. I still have some banana chilli dressing too, plus there's lots of fruit and dehydrated apple around should I feel peckish. Yep this raw food change is most definitely a positive and life-changing thing...can't believe it took me so long to find out about it.

More later, better do some work,
Franny xx

Been a great day today. I found a wholefoods shop that is great. I got the buckwheat too for my cereal. Yippee. I also made date nut torte...well a sort of variation as I didn't have enough of all the ingredients. I forgot to put the lemon in ( ops ) and added coconut juice and dehydrated apple in instead. I ate oranges and grapes during that difficult 'drive-home' time. For tea we had salad and something cooked ( that I am not going to admit to..it wasn't steak !!! ).

Anyway, I have always hated cooking, but I am sure loving learning to un-cook.

Cheers, Franny x

Someone must have been reading my thoughts. We have so many lovely pumpkins at home and they decorate the kitchen perfectly. However as I 'd like to eat them instead of using them as ornaments, these postings are really helpful. THANKS !

Franny

Oh Sheryl, you really are an inspiration to keep going. Thanks so much for taking the time to read my journal and make really constructive and useful comments.

Now yesterday after school I went for a walk ( uphill ) for half and hour and checked out a couple of streets around my workplace that I wasn't familiar with. I like looking at people's gardens for ideas. I ate 2 tangerines and grapes two nice safe fillers 'til I got home.

For tea I had pasta and tomatoes. Ifan leaves in 14 days and then I must have my raw tea receipes up and running to make the most of raw eating by myself.  

When I got home I made the banana and chilli dressing recommended from the recipe newsletter and a mixed green salad for lunch today. So far I have had my usual, seeds, nuts, air corn, soy milk and dates. I am sure I look younger. Well I certainly felt like I did when I looked in the mirror this morning..I  have fruit for recess as usual. I am feeling great.

More later, I must drink some water.
Franny x

lunchtime and I am eating red capsicum, lettuce, avocado, sun-dried tomatoes, celery and a little organic trout...at recess I ate my lovely bananas with tahini, what a gorgeous juxtaposition of tastes. YUM !

Breakfast was good. Silverbeet, apple and celery juice with ginger for added zest ! Followed by sultanas, air dried corn, dates, pepitas and sunflower seeds. I am feeling very full. I did have my soy milk, but am getting round to make some nut milk at some point.

My nails are feeling strong, 2 weeks and 2 days and I almost feel like I've conquered my biting addiction. Though I know I am not in safe territory until I hit about the 4-6 week mark. I know this is an addiction that has to be broken.

Did not sleep very well, even after listening to " Mozart Effect " music. So I slept in a bit this morning..wasn't late though. Whilst I was awake I was starting to worry about stupid things, like I used to do. Whilst this wasn't pleasant, I was pleased that my ' middle-of-the-night mind ' was able to say ' go away ' to the thoughts. I'd have never been able to do that a few years ago.

Feeling good albeit a little tired,

FRanny xxxxxxxxx

Thankyou very much, I will come visit the site soon.
Franny