Day 1
Well – here we go!!!! I am so excited it’s ridiculous!!! I woke up before 6 am today feeling like it was Christmas Day - only better as people eat turkeys on Christmas Day….whereas my actions are contributing towards the wellbeing of Plant Earth – and I’m very happy about that!!!
Starting weight: 9 stone 10 pounds/62 kilos.
Measurements: 34-30-36.
So, now onto declaring my intentions from this juice feast:
1) Dramatically cleanse my body physically
2) At the same time, shed old negative emotions that have been lurking in old toxic cells in my body. I instinctively feel that I still have quite a lot of old emotional stuff trapped in my body that really wants to come out now!
3) Lose excess fat. I’d like to lose at least 5 kilos, maybe more depending on how on how much muscle I have from training and whether I feel more comfortable being really lean, or whether I’d rather be better muscled like a gladiator. I know I’ll lose a lot of fat from around my middle and I’m looking forward to that. I haven’t had a really tiny hard waist since I was a teenager. How did it get so big??? It feel ‘wrong’ for it to be there. I will be stoked when I actually have a waist again!!! I’m also wondering if doing lots of crunches on this feast will help to shift lots of localized fat/toxins in that area? It’s certainly about time I got serious about crunches again ;-)
4) Sculpt my body: Use this special time to get fitter by increasing and diversifying my training – but only as far as my body feels comfortable with. I’ve been quite lazy with my training the last couple of years. Although I run several times a week on the beach I haven’t put much effort into it. So I’ve already increased my training in readiness and am now sore all over and can’t walk properly! I’ve started incorporating sprints plus resistance exercises like pushups, tricep dips, lunges and so on. Later on I might add some weights. I’m also really keen to buy a rebounder, finances allowing - I love trampolining and they look so much fun! I’m also keen to go to some yoga classes. I’ve only done a bit of yoga in my life but am ready to get stuck into it in the next few months.
5) Mental strength - I will not give in or give up, no matter what happens. I will complete the 92 days and do this juice feast properly. I have also banned myself from TV and trashy mags for the duration of this feast so I am deliberately helping myself to break old bad habits, bit by bit.
6) Create new great habits ie eat organic mostly from now on
7) Commit to being 100% raw vegan for life. This is a really big one for me as, in theory, it probably limits some of the things I can do in life. For example there is a spiritual tour to Egypt that I’d love to do but I doubt I could go with that group as I might possible starve ;-) This means I would need to do these kinds of tours with people like David Wolfe in Peru or Hawaii. I guess there are worse ways to spend a holiday ;-)

Magic – this is a really big one for me that I can’t define (otherwise it wouldn’t be magic) but I have very strong intuitive feelings that my life is going to be changed quite dramatically for the better because of this feast. I don’t know how or why – I just feel that contacts will be made, doors will open and that life will never be the same.
I was at the organic markets at 8am and met a lovely guy called Bob who can deliver to me three times a week. We had the nicest chat and I feel like he’s going to really look after me with the best produce he can supply me at the best price. I bought a huuuge amount of stuff and will load the pictures of this abundance of food in a moment. I spent $120 (he gave me $25 off) and I reckon this will only last me 3 or 4 days so I’m looking at spending $250 per week roughly, and that’s without the cost of a few supplements, plus anything I buy that I can’t get organic. I’ve made a clear decision to buy as much organic as possible but I will allow myself the odd trip to Harris Farms for treats like berries or melons that are no longer in season organically. So all up I reckon I’m looking at $200-300 per week. That’s a lot of money. However this whole exercise is less expensive than going to a retreat for a few days….and the health and experience benefits from it will be just priceless.
So this is what I juiced today. I made up 5 litres as I have a feeling I might get hungry today and I’m also going out tonight and would like to take another litre of juice instead of drinking water:
Massive bunch silverbeet
Head celery
Parsley
English spinach
Flaxseed oil (until Jojo gives me some hemp oil – thanks babe!)
Ginger
Tomatoes
Cabbage
Capsicum
Grapefruit
Oranges
Apples
Carrots
I think I was going more for nutrition than taste today….these are very green juices – probably 80% greens, 10% citrus, and 10% other. Hence I didn’t add any spirulina or crystal manna as I just didn’t think that I needed it! I have been drinking 2-3 litres of juice quite frequently recently but I do like my fats – olives, tahini etc and I’m a bit anxious about missing out those emotional comfort foods. Still, it’s too bad really! I was so excited and full of happiness when I was buy my food and making my juices this morning so my juices should now be imbued with mega amounts of excitement and happiness all day!
One thing I should mention which probably sounds quite funny….but I’m being tested already! As I was juicing this morning I was so thrilled at all my lovely organic produce which smells so different to non-organic. I’m not really normally a celery person (except in juices) but I took a big bite of a celery stick to confirm that it was indeed the most delicious celery I‘ve ever tasted. The, horror of all horrors, I realized that I had just eaten food on my very first day!!! I was a bit freaked out by this and had to think about it rationally and calmly. I was contemplating re-starting tomorrow but thought that I was over-reacting and that it was a honest mistake and literally just one bite. However, I will not be making that mistake again and I will be very careful to be well prepared for these 92 days so I don’t get caught short.
That’s all from me for now, I will post again later. Love to everyone reading my blog.
Lovespirit xxxxx
So, here's what I bought at the markets today. These are BIG boxes too. It's incredible to think how much vibrant organic nutrition will be going into my body :-)
This is my fridge absolutely jam packed with greens and juice. All my fruit and other veggies are stashed elsewhere.
My profile photo was taken today and is my 'before' photo....hence not a scrap of makeup :-) xx
Well, the evening of Day 1 didn't pan out quite as expected....but in retrospect it was probably a 'good thing' - it just shook me up a bit because of the realizations that came from it. This is what happened:
I went out to meet a raw friend in Manly and to meet some of her other friends. What I didn't know was that it would be in a bar/nightclub environment. Doof doof very loud music, neon lights, drunk people, cigarette smoke and ugly vibes. I totally hated it, my energy felt like it was under assault and so I left after 5 minutes. Walking back to my car the moon was so pretty, I would much rather have sat on the beach with a friend and admired her :-) So I went back home 'all revved up and nowhere to go' as Meatloaf would say.
Last night was a double edged sword. I am now clear that I have left behind my old life forever if I so dislike this kind of environment, even for a short while. There is no turning back now and it means that I am a bit of a social outcast except when I am with 'my own kind' ie vegetarian/vegan/raw foodies that would rather be in a natural and harmonious setting without the meat, alcohol, and aggressive vibes. I absolutely adore doing thing that are 'fun' - it's just that I don't consider that kind of place to be fun any more!
On the other hand, I am pleased that I honoured myself and left, when it was so uncomfortable for me physically, emotionally and spiritually just to be in there.
I'm not sure I really wanted this kind of experience on Day 1 of my juice feast. On the other hand, maybe it was the perfect experience for me on Day 1 so that I have even greater clarity about who I am, what I want, where I'm going and so on. There's absolutely no struggle or inner conflict within. We all get tested here and there in life. I have a sneaking suspicion I just passed a test :-)
Woke up today feeling really refreshed and quite lean and tight in my body. It's a nice clean feeling, I like it. I'm off to play with my gorgeous horses today and will report back later. xxx
Day 2
Here’s what I ate today. 4.25 litres of:
Silverbeet
Celery
Spinach
Romaine
Carrots
Sweet potato
Grapefruit
Oranges
Lemons
Hemp seed oil
Crystal manna
Ginger
+ 1 tsp bee pollen
So, in my haste to go and see my gorgeous horses I sculled a glass of left over juice that happened to be full of grapefruit, orange and lemon. This wasn’t a great move. It tasted alive and delicious but it also rendered me ‘fizzy’ (dizzy, fuzzy and fizzy) in the head for about three hours afterwards. I was glad to get into the juice later on in the day with more root veggies – much more grounding. However, physically I felt really good today. I didn’t feel strong but I did feel very clean and serene in my body. It feels like the blood flowing through my veins is silkier and smoother than usual. That might sound unusual but it’s the best description I can give.
Emotionally I was also pretty good except for some small incidents that, as always, cause me to wonder if I am actually ‘creating them’ or ‘triggering them’ - and if so, is this stuff I can release on a cellular level on this feast - or is ‘the lesson’ not to take this stuff personally and to put the onus of responsibility firmly back on the other parties that are behaving a certain way??? Big spiritual questions! It’s all a bit mind-bending really sometimes. Anyway, this is what happened. Person number one came up to me and said “Ohmigod, what-have-you-done-to-your-hair???**&&!!! Is that a wig???” Admittedly, I was a bit nonplussed at this. I may not be Elle but I didn’t think it looked that bad! (See my profile pic taken yesterday and you can decide for yourself if you think my hair warranted that comment). I was a bit rattled, mostly because I could not understand how someone could be so thoughtless and rude. There were two other situations like this today and it got me thinking about why this was happening. I do my best to be kind, thoughtful and generous to everyone. It actually made me really sad today for a while that people will walk around and launch mini personal attacks on people for no reason. It would have been so easy to think of something kind to say to me instead. I do take very seriously the axiom “Be the change you want to see in the world” – it’s my business motto. I know I’m not perfect but I really do try to be kind at all times!!!!!
Anyway, this did lead to some revelations about my ‘sensitivity’. In truth, I have always been extremely ‘sensitive’ – emotionally, spiritually, energetically, very ‘aware’ etc. I guess I was a bit of an Indigo child before they were supposed to be here officially. My awareness aged 10 led me to becoming a strict vegetarian overnight, despite bullying at school and by my extended family because of it. To cut a long story short, I fully realized today that when I started drinking and smoking aged 18 I found a way to be ‘normal’ and accepted by society. I became quite the party animal for more than 20 years as a direct consequence of that – trying to smother my energies, my sensitivity, my pain and outrage at animal cruelty, my own family challenges etc. So, it is these physical toxins, no to mention the emotional and mental trauma that I have inflicted on myself by trying to ‘fit in’ that I wish to release in this feast! Yep, this is all a bit deep and heavy but it made me want to weep for my body and what it has had to endure! I am also soooo clear that I am going to be the person that I’ve always been at heart –committed to animal rights, committed to being the best person I can be, ‘saving the planet’, raising my vibration, being HAPPY etc etc. I feel that finally the rest of the world is catching on to all of this stuff. But where were all the others that also felt like me 20/30/40 years ago??? Where have you been hiding? Not in Southend on Sea, Essex, England, that’s for sure! I wish we had found each other then. Thank God for the internet now!
I’m really hesitant about how much to blog here but I am sincerely hoping that this blog helps me by being able to articulating my thoughts. It would be lovely if it helps others too.
On a lighter note, my two ponies Dougie and Dancer were totally divine as usual. The sun was so warm today so I sat in the sun while they ate heaps and I sun-baked my face and soaked up the warmth. Sydney is so stunning in winter with the bluest skies and the crispest days with warm golden sun.
This is Dougie
And this is Dancer and Dougie:
Dancer is a big sook that loves to guzzle carrots and pears out of my hand. She did this today and actually dribbled pear juice all around the rim of my juice jar while she was making a quick grab for my juice. I had to thoroughly wipe my juice jar clean as a result – with my t-shirt of course which is what you do around horses ;-) I wouldn’t do this with a dog (except a vegan dog) but horses are so clean and fresh that a little bit of horse slobber is not going to overly concern me.
So, I really am feeling very good physically although sooo ready for bed now. I would really prefer to go to bed at 7pm and be up at 4am every day. My body clock is so different now I’m raw. However, I don’t think my neighbours would enjoy the sound of me juicing at 4am. Shame really.
Here’s a fantastic article on why we should all be vegetarian by Mike Adams. I highly recommend you save it in Word so you have a copy for when you need it: http://www.naturalnews.com/023299.html
Love to all
Lovespirit xxx
PS I have a sneaking suspicion that my pics won't load - if anyone want to tell me how to do it, please be my guest!