YES! I have been meaning to ask this question!

BUT

I don't understand the waste scenario. When we have our monthly flow, its because the lining of the womb and the egg are released. It isn't waste, its blood and tissue that is meant to be there.

Isn't it???

nah...freaks me out! 

why don't they use 'mock' meats instead. No freaky experiments involved, and from what I have been told, they taste a lot like meat.

sounds much better to me....

God what is going on in this world???

please share your recipe when you finish Eve!

Well, its been a busy few days havent been able to get on here and post.

Just read Primal Mothering in a Modern World, what an amazing and inspiring read! Should be compulsory reading for all young girls and newly pregnant mothers, and anyone who hasn't read it!!!

I had a weird day the other day. Had just fruit for most of the day, and then at about 2 had a big salad. I felt faint and dizzy and like I was going to pass out. It scared me. I was so emotional, I was crying and losing it like I do when some big hormonal shifts happen. It was so intense. I asked my sister-cousin to get me a pregnancy test from town, and it was negative. Thats how freaked out I was! My sis-cuz asked if I was eating enough protein....and I was confused, forgot about all the nuts I have been consuming. Had some chick peas in my salad that night and then some the next day, and lo and behold! I think they are a part of that sickness I used to get! I used to get bad wind when I would have beans or lentils etc...I became sick, belly was gurgling, burping, lots of gas. My goodness! Won't be doing that again!

While I was having my emotional outpouring I was crying, saying that I don't know why God put me here right now. Why now? I am finding it difficult being here when so many people just don't get it. This world is so stuffed up that sometimes it feels so wrong being here. I know we all have our purpose, we are all here for something, but you know, when times are tough,  when we see things that hurt, its like 'WHAT THE HELL?!!!'

I just watched a Howard Lyman video and he was saying that we are not here to try and teach people, or lecture them etc, but to just be a living billboard, To live it. And I know that that is the way. But damn its hard to just say nothing when someone who has been veg for years says I am eating pork, and I am not going to feel guilty about it. Well how do you think the pig feels about that? ARGH. So frustrating!

I am not interested in people justifying their eating meat when we have sooooo much food to choose from! It is so wrong and not justified in any way.

Anyways'...moving on! LOL
My skin feels amazing!!!! My body feels really good, most of the time. I do have days when I feel my body is detoxifying and I feel blergh....but I know that is meant to be, and its cool.

I feel so happy right now....listening to The Red-Eyes, speaking my truth to those who I feel I can. I said to a friend of mine the other day that it is hard to not have anyone that you can talk to, about what I believe in. She was sad about that, and said that I could speak to her if I wanted to. I don't feel I can though. How do you talk to people who don't get it? Then they feel they have to justify themselves and feel as though I am questioning them.

My cousin bought my little girl a cat made out of rabbit fur the other day. I mumbled about it, she knew I wouldnt like it. I spoke to my daughter about it and we decided that we'd give it back and I would get her something different. I rang my cousin and told her this. We debated for a while, then she was ok with it. Got her something else and I gave her the cat back.

I felt I was being tested by her. To see what I would do. To see how I would react. I mean to thank her for that! I was shining in my strenght and light because of that situation!

I'm outta here now. Going to see what you lovely people have been up to.
Love to you all....
Beau 

Hey....I think that this is an awesome idea!!!

I am definitely into it. I haven't got heaps of books yet, but I do want to buy more, not the whole library but you know....

will chat again soon!

Beau

Oh wow, far out, amazing, beautiful, truth and beauty!

I cried.

Such truth, and you cry because you know it, and because we have forgotten.

We need to remember!

Love to all
Beau xoxoxoxox

Hey Jenni....

thankyou for your post Yes I am being hard on myself, and I appreciate what you said about not giving ourselves a hard time when it comes to eating. I just want to do what I know is best for me, and sometimes it is hard to be out of the norm in this world. I find it hard to do. At least I know I'm not in this for the 'different' factor. I hate being different LOL

The sunset was gorgeous last night. Divine. Need to do that more often. I love how David Wolfe says to stand on a rock and watch the last 5 minutes of the sunset as a health practice. I literally felt it ground me down when I was doing it. It was amazing!

Lots of love to all here. I am buying some great books and am really excited about ii! Love this place!
back later!
Beau xoxo

ooooh I'm with you on the fruit and nut balls! I have been doing the same, when my sweet toothe strikes!
Just wish I had a food processor, I chopped it all by hand last night argh!

Thankyou for sharing your journey, its inspiring and I am looking forward to knowing my body, as much as you seem to know yours!

Love,
Beau xo

yep, you're right. And today was another day. Still feeling a bit low, but do feel better than yesterday.

I feel like I have hit a brick wall in my progress on raw. And I'm just standing here looking up at it, wondering how to get over it. I don't want to fall back into old patterns. I really need to embrace this lifestyle, I know it is for me, but the stupid world out there isn't on this journey with me, I feel alone, and wish that I could have some support close to home. Its also about wanting people to accept what I am doing and why. Why do I have such a need for acceptance? I don't know. I guess it is just about being loved, or about people loving me no matter what.

But anyway...blah blah blah....I just saw the sunset out the window and I need to go and watch it.

Love to all...
Beau xo

Yeah...no....I wouldnt be eating a meat sausage if it was free even if you paid me. A vegie one ...yeah maybe...had one tonight Ugh...but that feels bad for my body, meat is bad for body and soul........

They can shove their free crap food! 

Starting a new journal, but unfortunately its not all positive at the moment.

I am feeling a bit flat. Had a 'junk' food day yesterday. The junk food being raw chocolate pie for lunch and then raw chocolate ice cream for dessert. Better than the usual junk but I didn't feel that I was doing my body any favours for some reason. Don't know why. I didn't have any green smoothies or big salads, maybe thats why? I did have a vegie juice though. Being hard on myself again. I am kind of comfort eating again. It just feels so hard to be who you want to be in this world, without people teasing, thinking youre a freak or whatever. I just want to be left alone and be in peace. I want to do this and find it easy, but I'm not finding it easy. I don't have a very good blender, I do have a great juicer but I think its getting blunt. Dont have a processor or a dehydrator. I want to be able to eat what I am used to but raw, and I am finding that very hard to do.

Tonight I made dinner for my family, started a salad for myself and for them and then ended up stealing a vegie sausage and some cooked potato's as well as my salad. Feels heavy in my gut. Not zinging at the moment thats for sure. 

I'm feeling really irritable at the moment. Went to a family bbq on the weekend. My 8 and 12 year olds are vegetarian, my 5 year old isnt, she doesnt seem to care, and my 2 year old doesnt get it, and just eats wants to eat everything that everyone else around her is. So there were sausages there and she ends up stealing one off her cousins plate. I was so dissappointed. Not in anyone in particular, just in the situation. I don't think I can eat with them anymore. I don't want to. But I dont want this to affect my relationship with my family either. I just don't want my children in that situation. I dont want to be in that situation. And then on the other hand I think I want to be there so they can see what I am doing and how I am feeling and then maybe someone will get inspired one day. You never know?

Ah dear I dunno. I need new friends. I wish there were more people around here wanting to make changes in their lives as I do. But their isn't. They are all happy to be the same as always. Eating the same SAD diet as always.

Damn it damn it damn it damn it !!!!

And now I feel bleh.
Hopefully tomorrow is better.
Beau xo

Definitely Honour it! What an amazing organ! Truly a miracle. A friend of mine who is a registered midwife said that the placenta is the dna twin of the baby, they carry the exact same dna, which is true, and quite obvious when you think about it. I love looking at them and examing them..getting my hands on them and thanking them!

Mine are 2, 6, 8 and 12 (and my little girl who passed over would be 10) I have loved it this way, as I can only fit one baby in my arms at a time...or at least, that is how I like it.

We all manage with what we are given and I just believe in letting it happen however it happens. I didn't plan any of my children. They had minds and plans of thier own LOL!

But I wish you luck with whatever you decide! oxox

I've heard of that Jenni....making sure I have at least one green smoothie a day.

So tired today...baby girl went to sleep at 4:30, then woke at midnight and stayed awake till 3. argh

My skin feels amazing! So soft and smooth. Can't believe it!

I am reading Sunfood Living by John McCabe. (I won it from Vegan Voice Magazine!) My God. Take a look people! And tell your family and friends! This guy is so honest and clear, he is fresh air!

I am a bit worried about my intake of food. I dont eat enough. Im just a learner I know....so just need to take it easy on myself. Wish I could find cheaper organic produce!

Had a watermelon, guava, banana smoothie for breakfast.

Going to lay down.

Lotsa love
Beau xo

edited to add....I didn't lay down, I vacumed and cleaned up, and felt great. Wow. Where did that come from. LOL

am thinking I will.....