Had to do a bit of digging to ressurect this again. BTW, Thankyou for the salt information everyone- even though the thankyou is nine months later. Yikes.

So I'm starting to look after myself again, I haven't been- I haven't been eating well as a cooked vegan due to stress, medical problems, uni...lots going on. I've been offered conventional substitutions which has put me back to exploring the natural pathway. I'm seeing a naturopath, planning on trying acupuncture...going to hook up with a psychologist...going back to loading my body with nutritionally dense food and going to lay in the sun/exercise. It's just hard to keep it up...or even go back to everything because of my feeling state...but I really need to do it, I'm at the point I know I have to because otherwise I'm going to degrade my body and internally crumble.

Got up today and ate raw food only, god I've forgotten how good you feel on the initial first day (before cravings set in) of raw plant food only. Soothing...and what a high. I'm not sure how I'll stick to this since I'm still essay writing for uni, but if there's setbacks then that's okay...I wasn't planning on starting until after assesment but there's no reason to hold back.

I'm going to try and find the energy to load myself with greens, I'm craving them...I'm also taking alot of supps at the moment because I've been lacking the maintenance skills, so I will continue on them while I feed my body naturally and resume it to full potential. Naturopath is good, fine with a vegan diet...gets everything I say...wonder how the raw talk will go though, might put it off for a bit to see how this all unfolds. Cease venting.

Haha, yes welcome to the queen of on -again for a month, off again for eight months raw/cooked diet. Alas, beginning is all that matters haha.

Hey stmpy, great to see u back again !!
x  x

Raw sensation- that’s so great, well done! I know that smoking is so hard for people to give up, especially when they have been doing it for so long- can't speak from personal experience about how hard it is of course. The human body is v. adaptable with the right willpower, and willpower you have. Good on you!

Thanks Jen and Kelly! Good to be back.

Kelly- I’m studying Arts (Media & Comm) right now Love that picture of you btw..I should change mine since everyone has a pic up.

haha, aw thanks- I'll imagine what raw could do for my skin/hair then!

DAY 2-
So Day 2 is alright at the moment. Last night was a little painful, I started to get worried as to whether I was doing the wrong thing going back on raw. This was followed by stress regarding my life situation/where it is heading as well as uni work that is almost due and I haven't started. So my anxiety flared and by 4am I was in bed and upset and emotional about everything. Woke up and felt a little funny, detox is kicking in. Running out of food already which doesn't help the cause but at least I am feeling good, as I am focusing in on my last assignment more than yesterday. I think I may be more worried about my hair- oh my god...why did I water wash it prematurely?!...I'm already wanting to give it a good scrub. I woke up this morning and since it is short now I looked as though I had been electrocuted. The front was light, but the back was dark and still wet(!!)...as though it had dried but not dried properly...dense and damp. Hair is starting to feel heavy and waxy and strange.

Ahhhh I'm detoxing everything and it's all messy haha...*channels inner peace*. It's all good, I think I'd be coping alot better if this bloody assignment was done, so that's what I'm off to do. xo

UPDATE: Mmm, food has arrived. All this green leafy stuff and I think most of it is organic, I'm gonna have a party with it tomorrow. Ate LOTS of nuts...trying to lift my fatty acids because I'm not getting enough...plus I needed some protein/zinc/mag etc. Organic apples and mandarins..i hate conventional mandarins...taste like crap, and you really know it when you get the organic ones. Mm, feel more lifted right now.

thinking about trying to go raw again. this came to me in the middle of being incredibly stressed, for some reason when im stressed- i'll research how much i need of certain foods in order to eat raw and get the right RDI.

think i struggle with raw, but always want to come back to it, because i'm so unhappy. dealing with depression, generalised anxiety disorder and ibs makes you not want to look after yourself. sounds odd, but that's the effect. lack of absolute motivation. this year is a mess and right now i feel like im almost imploding and im not coping at all. need to try raw again, hope i can do it properly this time, hope i can look after myself before they end up putting me on medication and i give in. natural is best.

i've been doing so badly, nutritionally and everything else this year... that im craving veggies. lots and lots of veggies and fruit. its soothing.

hmm.