That's the best news I've heard for a long time, taking 'jen' time out(regularly:) will certainly maintain a sense of balance and equilibrium and more importantly a better mum, wife etc.

Wishing you heaps of fun and laughter Jen!

A week or two ago I decided that I needed to become closer to God or the Universe, the Source. I'm going to say God because it's easier to type and say! Anyhow, I made this descision and acted on it. Started meditating, reading material designed to help people along this path and also listening to designed for the same thing.

Last night I had a phonecall that shocked the hell out of me! I ended up in bed from 8.30 last night until 2pm today. Currently I have a temp of around 39.8 and a headache to match. I've been poor me-ing all over the place until around 15 minutes ago when I realised that hey... I made a descision. What happens when we make descisions? Often but not always, we are tested to see if we really mean business.

The phone call I had last night shoved me right back into my ego space. Really fast too! Once I made this realisation it was easier for me to realise that I can control my reaction. I don't have to lie in bed sleeping off shock and staying away from my family so they won't have to deal with this as well. Ok, so the news wasn't good but it's not going to kill me right!

I just had to get this down. As you can see we did not go camping. There were a few reasons for this. The main one being the weather. I am not a fan of camping in wet weather. In fact the last two times we have camped just as a family, the regions have suffered their worst weather in 10 years. I would rather be at home when it's raining. At least I have my own room to go to when I need some peace!

Bill and the kids are at Dreamworld right now so I thought I would sneak in some puter time.

We had a great Christmas day. We opened presents in the morning and played with everything. Sacha arrived just after 12 with his Nintendo wii and we had a ball on that thing. I played a boxing game and I kid you not I had sore muscles the next day!!! Bill bought me an MP3 player for Christmas and it's now loaded up with Wayne Dyer and he speaks of all sorts of good things directly to my little ears while I am out and about running or walking. Love it. I've been putting the earplugs in, pressing play and falling asleep on the couch nearly everyday! Awesome.

The kids are loving their holidays. Getting a theme park pass was a great idea. They have been going often. Caitlyn loves the Tower of Terror the best and Brock isn't quite large enough yet but is trying hard to grow. I've been telling him that the more green smoothies he has, the faster he will grow. 'What a load of crap' was his reply. *sigh*

I've been doing well with raw. I went through a patch just prior to Christmas where I had cooked for four days in a row. Usually around dinner time and I put this down to a lot of the mood swings I am having now. Certain foods create certain moods in me that are not fun but it's all a part of the learning process for me.

I hope that everyone has had a great Christmas. This is my last entry in this journal. It saw me through the first year of raw and I'm hoping that a new journal will help me reach new heights.

Here's to 2008!!!!

Love you all.

xoxoxo

I can't wait to meet you too Pea! YOu are a pocket dynamo. And Jas as well. I hope you are feeling so so much better now. I've been thinking of you and sending you the equivalent of my prayers often. Rest often. If you do then I will as well!

xoxoxo

This wee quote will help you stick with it Jen:)

'Every failure is a stepping stone to success.Every difficulty or disappointment is a trail of your faith.Every temptation is a test of your spiritual strength. Therefore nil desparandum. March forward hero!' Swarmi Sivananda

Says it all really, you are doing really well Jen, keep it up!

MEDITATION - The constant flow of thought upon the Divine. Focus on the Chakras which correspond with energy centres of tne body. Clear your mind. Go within the Silence. Relax, relax, relax....................