Hi Everyone! thanks a bunch for all your encouragement. May you are so gorgeous. I've always been the type to get angry. this has come up for me before but I've never really looked at it. I get very annoyed when someone talks over the top of me in conversation or if I've told someone something and they have forgotten me saying it... Last year my cousin informed me that I have an exceptional memory for remembering conversations that other people just don't have. It probably comes from trying to hold my own in abusive relationships. So I haven't been so bad about that since. I can usually explain it away. Today everytime I've felt heard I've used EFT to tap it in. Tapping in 'I thank myself for being heard' or ' I thank myself for acknowleging that others have heard me and understood what I'm saying'. I do feel a lot calmer. It's nice.

I don't know where these thoughts come from either. I'm having a good look at my listening skills as well. Usually when we don't like something we are mirroring the behaviour of what we don't like to some degree. And, funnily enough, I found that I'm often cutting people off in conversation, finishing their sentences or coming in with my own exited opinion. So I'm very happy with my efforts today and I'm so very very grateful to all who have stepped in with their wonderful comments today. It's been very soothing.

I'm off to a friends house now and so I'll be back later with some photos and eats for the day.

Have a great afternoon/evening/night/morning.

xoxoxo

I had a really nice afternoon. We all went to the kids favourite park on the coast. It's got the best slide! We had a picnic. The kids had their sangers and hubby and I had raw vege curry. I'll post that in the recipe section in a mo.

We took turns in playing with the kids and geez it was fun. I went on the slide about 8 times. It's so fast. I don't quite scream all the way down, it's more of a high pitched "eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee" and I come out the end of it so fast it flings me to my feet! So much fun. And we booted the soccer ball around for awhile and tickled Brock. It's amazing how good he's getting with it.

Then home. I was talking to a feng shui lady last night and she said it's very important to not have clutter. So I did an inventory of all my clutter today and boy do I have lots! It's mostly in drawers. I just keep buying them when the others get full! I've got one in the kitchen, two in the dining room, three in my bedroom, and six near the front door (I'm still talking drawers!) that are all so full of junk! It's unreal. So I'm starting to clear out tomorrow. And I've got the laundry cupboards also. But they are better than they used to be. Which wasn't hard!

I bought her book too because I know people who have worked with her and said she is amazing. I found this to be so. But the funds are in creation for her fee which is why I bought the book! hahahaha.

Tonight I also made a batch of cookies from the pulp of the coconut that I blended and strained for the cream, the almond pulp from milk making and four small bananas and three teaspoons of cinnamon. They are quite bland which is a shame. Next time I make them I would use half banana and half apple or sultanas. But they held together and I'm thinking I'll make some chocolate and dip them in it! Wum!

I'm feeling a lot lot lot better tonight. In the park I did eft on not being heard as well as the other stuff I told you all about earlier. And I feel lighter. A ways to go though! My body is holding tight to these beliefs and it's showing in muscles tightening all through my body, tightening around the problem. I can almost hear my body saying "what are you DOING letting all this go? Don't you know that if people don't listen they don't value you or respect you or what you are saying? How are you supposed to know who does value your input and respect your ideas without all this stuff? Let me hold it and go and make some cookies... cooked cookies, choc chip ones".

Oh dear, body has to catch up with mind! And emotions...

Anyhow here's a pic of me relaxing at the park today, I hope you like it. I do.



I'm off to post my curry recipe.

xoxoxoxo

What an awesome afternoon -enjoyed by all. fantastic

ha ha ha you go eft goddess !

I love seeing families out and about enjoying themselves and the beautiful outdoors. So good for all the family and friends.

Hey all,

Lea! Thanks for dropping by my journal. I know how busy you are and it means a lot that you donate some of your rare spare time here! 

Yup Speeds. It's awesome to see isn't it! Is there a saying that they family who plays together stays together? I saw two families picnicing together and their kids were playing cricket. The adults joined in and it was sooooo nice to see teens and parents communicating. I'll have to remember to watch for that some more and inprint it into my mind that although my teen years were awful that it can be beautiful.

Today has been such an awesome day. Firstly I scored some free books which was perfect. They are just what I needed right now and I feel so very blessed. Then I procrastinated about calling my 'students' to confirm their bookings next Wed. It feels so strange and yet so right to say I have students! I am not a fan of making phone calls but I really enjoyed the process. I need to work on my phone manner a bit. Plan what I'll say more but that's just practice and I'll get better as I go! The first call I got the lady (who is soooo nice) asked if she could bring her mum, I had to say no because the class is booked but I put her on a cancellation list! When I rang the second lady, her mum couldn't come! One door opens and another door closes... serendipitous!

Another thing I procrastinated about was cleaning out or tidying my kitchen cupboards. I did this tonight which is why I'm posting so late but it's now done. Tomorrow the laundry and some other drawers. I'll get organised, just watch!

Today I ate a LOT!!! I started out with a gem of a gs made from a big handful of baby kale that I'm growing, some mint, two stalks of celery, four small bananas and three dates and the water from a young coconut. Delish!

Lunch was a yummy salad of baby spinach, pineapple chopped really finely, grated carrot, celery, garlic, and young coconut flesh shredded into noodles. Yummmm! Oh! And basil shredded finely and lime juice. And salt. Oh my memory just doesn't wanna play at this time of night!

For dinner I had a smoothie made from almond milk, cacao powder, agave, banana and strawberries. Yummo. And then I made some cookies that seem to be working the best so far. I used the pulp from the almond milk, two small bananas, two small grannysmith's grated, a heaped teaspoon of cinnamon and some soaked sultanas. I put everything in the food processor except the almond pulp whizzed away and then mixed the fruit mix and pulp together. Pretty nice. But it still needs a stronger flavour.

It's funny how the mind works. I keep thinkingk, oh it needs some sugar! Der. And I go back to that everytime I test the recipe for taste. I'm so used to sugar 'bringing out' the flavours of the food... it's all a learning curve. I'm going to try some crackers soon.

Anyhow, it's late and I'm so tired. Trying to be organised just throws my whole system out. I work much better with messes everywhere. If I can't find something it's usually in one of my messes! Hubby is very tidy and it's taken a long time for him to get used to it! But not as long as it's taken me to get to the point I am right now... which is loads better than it used to be!!!

See you all later.

xoxoxo

Hi Miss G, you know your stuff good woman! I do use ground cinnamon. I've got coffee grinder on my mothers day present list along with a new picnic blanket, some big bowls with lids, a spiraliser and a few other little bits and pieces. That way I still get a suprise and he still gets me what I want.  I love presents. Just love them. But hubby isn't. There is no little suprise gift unless I get him one! So I am very grateful for mothers day, valentines day, Christmas, Easter, My birthday and now we have an anniversary too!  Life gets better and better.

I'm cranky again today. but this time it's because I'm knackered. No balance. I've been cleaning out cupboards ruthlessly and drawers too and delivering stuff everywhere so that it's just GONE and no- one can talk me into keeping it! Last night was midnight and the night before also. I don't do well with little sleep. I find that I function best when I'm in bed before 9.30.

Sigh. so that's what I'm doing tonight. An early one! Well that's the plan anyhow!

Todays eats.

I started well with a big GS made from water two big handfuls of spinach, about three cups of grapes and four small bananas. All was very yummy.
Lunch was Harley's walnut pate (kinda) I changed it a bit. There's a photo and my twist on the recipe in the recipe section.
For a snack this afternoon I ate about half a batch of bikkies that I made last night! Oops. You know, they really make me crave cooked. I don't know why? But I'm just dying for some cooked food. But then I crave it when I'm really tired and/or grumpy also. 

That's my day so far.  I'm signing off now so have a great time online all you rawbies and rawbies in training!

xoxoxo

the part of this post that resonated with me jen is that you dont feel guilty you feel curious. i think this is quite important. what do you feel curious about?

ive noticed with myself, whenever i try to give up a bad habit, i always fall off the wagon a few times... usually quite a many lots of a few times lol. and i always feel guilty... up to a point. after a while, after falling off the wagon over and over and beating myself up about it i stop feeling guilty and i notice that when i fall off the wagon i feel quite curious. this usually only happens a few times, more and more spaced out in time, before i give up the habit entirely.

and i have a strong intuition that that curiosity is my mind almost saying "ok, so i thought i needed this thing, then i found out i dont, and i would be better off without it. and now ive given it up i do feel better... but maybe thats something else in life making me feel better, maybe its not giving up such-and-such at all... maybe tonight i'll just indulge a little bit, try the old way out again and see how it makes me feel.."

so you dont just fall off, you dive off head first... and then you feel like crap. and you notice this. and so its a bit longer before you fall off the wagon again.. and then its a bit longer again... and pretty quickly it sinks in that "ok, so i was right. it is giving up such-and-such thats made me feel better... well... cya later such-and-such... its been fun but theres no room for you here anymore" and your brain slams the door in its face lol.


so as rambling and possibly incoherent as that little story was, i hope you get what i mean lol. so dont feel bad, why feel bad? whats done is done. learn from it and move on.

get a good sleep tonight darling. and good luck with your class next week