hi all,
what a hideous 48 hours i have had but i wont bore you with the details in depth - to cut a very long story short i am currently dealing with a pending ministerial inquiry into care of my brother which is rather traumatic for me (and i have only caved to one chocolate block) and that actually made me feel worse so i ate a whole watermelon instead haha!! i cant go into whats happened (legal ramifications and all that stuff) but i tell you i am sure, besides a very small minority of people that deal with my boy, that they have no common sense or any sort of clue how to even look after a cat let alone a child with a severe disability!! anyway my boys home for the weekend and grinning from ear to ear pigging out on chips, baked beans and vegemite toast. thats his diet!! and yes we have tried and tried but to know avail lol i think  we should recieve payments from heinz baked beans for the amount we buy lol!
because i am terribly slack and terribly busy at times i have organised with the local deli that we use as the school canteen that she will make me up a fruit and veg plate for those times that i am disorganised! so happy and the kids have been ordering them too in replace of hotdogs!! because if i eat them they must be good lol!! anyway have to go and spend some time with my boy and wash his hair and all that fun stuff while i battle with him to keep the plug in the bath long enough for me to even wet his hair lol
ciao for now
love
kat
xx

hi may
thanks for that.. and if anyone needs a laugh this has just been the comedy of errors in our house.
the boy has decided he was actally going to stay in the bath so instead of me having to sit on the toilet seat reading a book with my foot in the bath on the plug he was happily playing away. so i though ok will get some housework out the way. doing the dishes i heard him giggling - thinking he was just happy to be home and not seeing the water running through the kitchen because i was busy with the dishes. laughing continuing - better check it out. dont see the water - you can then picture me on my back on the kitchen floor and to stop me slipping have managed to knock the gs off the bench and that has done a lovely somersault in the air and landed fair and square on my face!! im just about in hysterics from laughing as it would have looked sooooo funny!!! have managed to mop up most of the water which also included the kitchen after i spent 5 mins trying to remove gs of me and forgetting that the kitchen sink tap was not quite off and so i flooded that as well!! i am sure there has to be good qualities from gs 'on the skin' lol hope all get a giggle out of this as i certainly have!
love a very green
kat
xxx

on no may i thought it was so funny - complete comedy of errors lol - not hurt so a good laugh does wonders for the soul!! off for a shower now lol

Dearest Kat, I hope that your weekend is astonishinly beautiful and wonderful. Best wishes for the dramas and every thing will work out in the end!

xoxoxox

no way would i have been laughing speedy! would have been another excuse to drink and write the day off. i just laugh at things now like that. wish i could laugh of legal matters but its not quite the same when his care is the topic of conversation. i become a different person as no-one messes with him at all.
my little boy has given me five minutes of rest and is fast asleep in his sisters bed. so i've put on my fav music Cafe Del Mar relaxation cd and i am going to try and squeeze half an hour in the garden. we had the most beautiful rain last night it was wonderful watching the ground have its first drink in a very long time. i've been trying to giggle doing the housework this morning as everytime i have turned on the vacum cleaner my little mister thinks its really funny to turn it off because i seem to get grumpy lol. been feasting on raw veg today lots of carrot, broccoli and cauli yum.
anyway going to try and get in the garden so im off.
love
kat
xx

hi all,
ugh cant believe i finally got five minutes to myself!! only just finished work stuff as its end of term and interviews are on and sports day and everything is just so out of control!!! so thankful for gs as i am sure thats the only thing keeping me though (just). struggling with slipping in a few cooked meals as i am just so busy i've gone back to those naughty habbits but only twice. still only getting about 3 hours sleep so any advice on that would be awesome. big apologies that i havent got to anyones posts - i get some time off from friday and have decided to take some real time out and have booked in for my raiki and remedial massage lol even though it equaites to pain lol but want to get back into my walks as well as climbing the bluff - i love walking on the beach with casey (my pooch) and with the cooler weather there are less people down the beach which is what i like. its coming up to 2 years since i lost mum and ive been a little weepy today and realised that i havent even started to come to terms with it. i was so ill when mum died that emotinally i was not able to comprehend it. oh well another test ahead.
going to light some candels and try to chill a bit tonight. i promise to get to some posts this weekend. thanks may for making me feel like i do derserve the pat on the back i have given myself - i normally deal with things using alcohol so i guess i am doing ok 
love and hugs to all

Hi Kat,

Frantic times are hard to cope with aren't they?  You sound as if you're doing well to me.  You've not been raw long and you haven't dropped it, just taken a coupla shortcuts because of time constraints.  By the next time you get a bedlam session in your life you'll have learned a lot more, be more set in your raw ways and you'll have learned a heap from this time.  Look forward.  Move on!!!  But don't forget to look back and see how much you've achieved from time to time too

I'm really sorry about your Mum, and that you couldn't grieve properly at the time.  It's harder to do it later isn't it?  My brother died in January 2006 and I could not do 'my thing' at the funeral.  I don't feel comfortable with my family of origin, so I went back very early one morning a week later so that I could be alone with him, and that was my time to grieve.  I told him what beautiful surroundings he was in and how many kangaroos were there (heaps of them!) grazing on the grass nearby.  He'd have loved that.  It was a very special time and I felt so close to him, but also able to do what I needed to let him go.  Perhaps you may be able to plan a time for yourself, if you feel it would help you.  Set up photos or go somewhere significant.  I hope you find what is right for you Kat.  And when it's right too.

Sending you love!!!
May

Hi Kat, So sorry to hear that your life has been so hectic. I know how it feels! Never having any time to self.... but hey 3.5kg! You have something positive to focus on.

What a wonderful and caring person you are. So lovely to your brother and to yourself. I must confess that I've been a bit worried about you... glad you haven't gone back to drink. But that doesn't mean that if you are still hectic that you need to post to keep me from worrying... I guess you know that but just being clear.

Thinking of you... 

xoxoxo