I have a cold *sniff sniff* I hate having a cold....

But yesterday I fasted on just water (mum has the fasting book by Braggs and that is what it says to do) so I feel heaps better today then I did yesterday but I do have a headache. It was really strange it was about 2ish and I started to feel really sick and just wanted to sleep like I normally feel like day 3 into a cold. it feels like I have sped through the cold and I am now on the down ward slide. So I am going to fast again today unless I feel like I want a smoothy or something.

does anyone know if this will be affecting Islie at all she is still her normal self seems to be a bit more settled if anything.... Just wondering I know all the water is good for my supply but what about toxins.

anyway I have sort of been with you on this Lulu just a few days behind.

Love to you all
Angie

I know I havnt been on for so long just because I got another cold (or the same one a week later) and have been feeling very bluh and not eating raw.

I fasted for 1 and 1/2 days then I had a gs then a salad which was nice.

I have been having very very very busy days with the kids and feeling like I need to spend more time with the kids (pete is home now that is why I am online) And cleaning the house. I dont know it feels like I have had a shift in the way I do things.... I still dont spend as much time with Connor and Bella as I would like to be as I seem to always be feeding Islie or cleaning the house..... I know I shouldnt be worried about the house but there are certain things that really need to be done like the washing and sweap the crap off the floor quickly etc etc etc.

I can see how all my internet time has been affecting the Bella aspecially she is getting to the age where she just wants mummy or daddy orwhoever to read and spend time with her. especially since she is still a little tramatised from moving and Islie birth.

I have been eating more raw but not enough either so today that is all I have had. I find if I have hummus made up (which it isnt raw or 100%) I can stay raw so much easier. I should sprout my chickpeas so it is even more raw then can crap.

Anyway i have had a bit of letting go in this post..... So I will leave it there till later

Lots of love to you all Angie

Oh Jen I so feel like I am failing at being a mum to my 3 beautiful children.... The last fews day I really have been. I feel so sorry for Connor cause he doesnt get anywhere near the amount of attention that the girls do but I went and sat in the play room with him today and he just sat there watching a DVD an really ignored me for most of the time....... I know they are watching way way way to much tv at the moment but it is just so hard with a 3 month old that is still feeding every 45 mins and is still taking about 20  - 30 mins to feed.

I know life will get easier as Islie and I settle into this breastfeeding thing and I know it is just a stage we are going through with it taking so long but I really feel for the other two kids.

I also know that it will be so different in a few months that I will be able to take the kids to the park and for walks and sit outside with them playing and jumping more often and I know this is only for such a sort time in their life but it still hurts.

Connor had done a poo the other day and it took me about an hour to get it changed cause I was still with Islie and then I left her to scream at me. My poor boy imagine sitting in it for that long.

How do we do it this early with kids this young and not damage them to much.

sorry about the sad post but iI have to go and feed Islie again now so I will talk later......

Well said Jen.

Pinky your kids will not judge you for how your house looks and neither will anyone else who cares about you.  Your children will grow into wonderful people through the love that you show, you don't have to entertain them constantly, they will not hold this against you when they are older.  Like Jen said, ALL mothers go through this and yes it is hard but it is well worth it, your little ones will all grow up together and be the best of friends because of their close ages, this is when you will be happy you had them sooooo close, I know this because my first three were close too and guess what, I made it through and so will you.  When you go to bed each night, exhausted, just say 'thankyou' and it will see you through the next day.

Love and lots of hugs to you

Yaaaaaaay for you Pinky and you know, if Pete doesn't worry about it and just wants you and the kids to be happy then that is an extra yippee for you!

When I look back at my friends who had pristine children while we all had littlies at the same time, they were either exhausted and worn out to the point of resentment of their children (I was one of these) or they had really helpful mothers themselves. Or, in the case of two of them they were just those type of people to whom tidiness is akin to breathing and just as easy.

Well done with your rawness young lady!

xoxoxo

wow. It's not nice when we are blamed for things that we didn't do. But you know what? It's not your fault that they will not listen and it's not your fault that they speak to you with no love or respect in their words. Look at how things are with your babies. Focus on that and know you are good.

hugs!

xxoxxo

Good on you Pinky. Keep on trucking. Keep the goal in mind.

xoxoxo