Wasn't quite sure where to post this one (feel free to move it Sheryl/Piers if it is inappropriately placed!). Just needed to share some thoughts. As many of you who were here a year ago will know, I birthed a stillborn baby girl (Phoebe) on June 16th last year. She is with me always, and she taught me more than anyone else could ever have the capacity to. I love that she felt that I was ready for such a massive lesson, and I love that of all the people that she could have shared her short time on earth with, she chose our family. The whole pregnancy, death and birth was charged with positive energy. If I could sit down and plan my life over, I would choose this part of it every time. She is strong in my mind at the moment, as she died in my womb on the 25th of May, 2006, and on the 25th of May this year I felt her death again (inadvertently, I had actually given no thought to the significance of the date until she gave me a gentle nudge). She struggled with death, I felt again her little body inside me jerking and shaking, kicking and arching and then nothing. It was the most movement I had felt in weeks, her one last fight before moving on. She had trouble letting go. Phoebe knew that she was never to take a breath, she knew she was here just for us, to give us the gift of conscious living. I love that she also had the human traits of not wanting to go when her time had come - she was a wise angel and spoke to me loudly enough that I could hear her very clearly. A determined girl. Yeah, some days I wish I could hold her and watch her grow up, those days are rare, as I appreciate that she sacrificed her chance at life so that we could REALLY live. She is and always will be such a treasured family member. Arohanui Phoebe, thank you for blessing us.

I've been thinking of you and Phoebe this week Meg.  My first baby boy died on the 16/6 (birthed 18/6) so it's a date I remember.  What you say is so true.  If you want/need to talk IRL lmk and we can get together.

love Jen

Dearest Meg, a warm heartfelt hug to you, she was and is such a beautiful gift to you and your family, she chose well.....xxxxxx

Dear Meg,

Thanks for sharing this. Having never experienced it I can only imagine how painful this could be on so many levels.

 Love and hugs to you and your husband also.

xoxoxo

maybe that is the reason why there are more vegan women than men?
cos women can physically relate to a mother dairy cow/goat or chicken etc.. when her newborns are taken away everytime.

last thing we want is sympathy..cos it just keeps us in the state that makes people feel sorrry for us.
 when people around us can highlight that the best comes from the worst...thats the ticket.
vm is on the right wicket.