Congratulations to Emma Snowsill who has just blitzed a win in the Triathalon. It was amazing to watch! And also to Emma Moffatt who came third. To great Aussie Emma's. Woo hoo!

xoxoxo

Jenergy!  Wonderful name with such a strong connotation!  I can see this being so affirming for you!  You are so full of zest anyway, despite how incredibly busy you are!

Reading your story, with the actual image of your shoes still freshly imprinted upon my mind's eye, brought about another little giggling cascade!

Sunday was truly wonderful hey!  Thank you so much for coming!  ~ hehehehe, still laughing over your shoes and the thought that neither of the pair wanted to be left behind so they conspired to both come at once!

I am glad your weekend was so rejuvenating.  Sounds like the place you stayed at was perfect for you all!  The bottle labels is a very ingenius solution (they look great too) and the juice as beer is pretty funny!

Your reunion with Bella touches me ~ i love dogs and your photos capture that feeling of excitement and outpouring love, over seeing them again...even after a short time apart!

Much us grassie ass....to borrow your very cute interpretation of thank you!

love love love

 

For the last week or so I have felt that there is another shift coming for me. I awoke on Friday morning feeling like something big was coming and put it down to my upcoming weekend! However I am bursting into tears at little moments... like when Grant Hackett missed his gold medal, and when Emma Snowsill got hers. I am loving the Olympics for the first time ever and seem to be very emotional about it. I'm not sure where it's coming from.

Also I was emailing a friend the other night and burst into tears then also and just a moment ago as well! (Where's Sanga, she'll be loving this!) Strange thing is that I don't feel sad or angry. At times as this has been happening I've been damned bewildered and saying to myself "Self, again? What for???" and Self does not answer....

It's an interesting journey.

A few days ago I hopped on the scales expecting to see that I had gained some weight as my jeans are way too tight at the belly area and was shocked to note that I had gained 7 kg!!! What the... I was ok at the time that I found out but today I am not ok about it.

I am berating myself for allowing myself to gain so much weight. I'm frightened that I have pushed my adrenals over the edge and that I won't be able to lose the weight and I'm constantly aware of my belly. So action time!

I've been getting loads more sleep. I've been exercising again but after I exercise I'm feeling all adrenally. Butterflys in tummy for hours afterwards and buzzy, nervous energy, so it's back to the mini tramp for now with just a few very short walks for Bella during the week.

Combining foods properly. I think a lot of this weight gain has been because we ran out of truly raw cashews so I've been having organic 'raw' ones which we all know have been heated to "crikey" levels during the shelling process. Rancid fats peoples.... so no more of those.

And just allowing some time each day to be. To cry if I have to... listen to a meditation cd for 10 minutes. Just rest you know?

I woke this morning feeling like hell. Headache, completely coated white tongue, headache like you wouldn't believe and it feels like my spinal column is on fire.

So resting resting is the order of the day. I'll be working in the house today for a change of venue. I'm doing a lot of (very boring) paperwork so working inside will be nice so I can see all the greenery.

Also I'm feeling very compelled to put together a new vision board. The old one has worked wonders. I've achieved most things on it and so a new one is in order.

Funny thing is that in spite of all this there is an undercurrent of happiness there. Surfacely unhappy, underneath happy! They've swapped places. How wonderful! I'm putting this down to all of the good books I've been reading lately... Yogananda and Florence Schovell Shinn and Brandon Bays. All very inspiring and positive books.

Life is good and I'm so very grateful for all the lessons I'm coming through right now.

xoxoxxo

Well they must have been received Savvy because about 2 hours ago I started to turn a corner. Thanks matey!

Yesterday was an interesting day to say the least. I ended my day with a very small salad and then had about 20 dates an hour later. Went to bed, read until 9.30 and had the strangest dreams that made absolutely no sense to me at all. I remember one last bit though, the bit that woke me. I was on a river bank ready to go kayaking (which I've never done in real life) (or in unreal life!) with two friends. We hopped in, took our oars and rowed off sqealing with laughter the way only girls can.

At once we all looked back to smile and wave at those we had left on the river bank. When we turned back the water was rough and choppy. There were rapids and we were afraid of getting cold. So we managed to turn away from the rapids but the river was raging and took us with great speed around a bend. When we saw what was around the bend... terror and surrender. All at once! There was great big waves and we were getting sucked straight out to them. We knew we were going to die.

In my dream I awoke. I was in my bedroom. I walked out and Bill was doing the ironing and watching the superbikes. "It's monday I thought". Then Caitlyn and Brock raced up to me so delighted I was awake. I looked at Bill and said, "Is this heaven?"

He laughed as he does when I say something really silly but cute and said "no!"

And I said "But I'm supposed to be dead. This is not right" and we had a big argument because I would not accept that I had to be alive still. I was so keen to rejoin spirit!

Strangely enough I awoke full of energy after this dream. At 2.30am. I was Ready for the day. But I stayed in bed. I had such a great feeling (perhaps my lazy habit) that I would regret it if I got out of bed. So I stayed. I tried to meditate and do some of Brandon Bays journey work and didn't succeed at either. I watched Bill sleep which I love to do and don't get to do often. He is even cuter when he's sleeping. And when Bill got up at 5, I went back to sleep until 7.30.

I didn't want food again today. I just didn't. I wanted juice! So juice I did. Gorgeous juice too. There was 4 stalks of celery, 1/2 lemon peeled, small handful of coriander, and 2 leb cukes. And a pear. Nearly forgot that! Delish! Best juice today.

Then about 1/2 an hour ago I had three bananas blended with three dates and 1/2 a vanilla bean poured over 2 chopped dates. Yummo!

My energy is increasing as the afternoon goes by. I'm still going to have an early night though as I can feel that I'm still tired to my core. Then tomorrow is another day! yee haa.

I am grateful for this cleanout. It's been very interesting! Everything hurt yesterday. Spine, boobs, teeth, bones, muscles, hair. Everything. i was a ball of pain. Today I rock. I'm back to almost normal. A little sluggish still but almost my old self again!

it's amazing how things work. When I was feeling less than average, the phone hardly rang, no where near as many emails. A very quiet day. Today has been flat out! Not one piece of paperwork have I looked at. Which is both a great and a sad thing!

Ah, the universe works in mysterious ways. I am forever grateful for it's beauty and symmetry.

I've just reread that. What a ramble. If you read that you are a superstar!

xoxoxox

We are in tune Savvy girl! Awesome. Hugs to you honey....

I'm feeling so much better today! It's wonderful. I'm feeling much more energetic today.

I'm so keen to get into my jogging again. I am going to do a lot of affirmations around my adrenals this week. I was talking to JR the other day who also suffered near on adrenal fatigue at the same time I did and is now doing really well and he never stopped exercising. Fabulous man he is. Adore him muchly! Cannot wait to meet his wife who he speaks of very highly.

Healing body. Lots of energy. I am so inspired by Phill's talk today. I'm going to listen to it again and again and just soak up that wisdom. Whatta guy!

After just reducing my foods for three days and allowing my body to clear out, I can't believe how good I feel. But when I increased my foods I felt a surge in energy. The talk with Phill today taught me, among other things, that raw is a journey. It's ever changing. It's fascinating.

For me it's coming  back to myself.

I dropped in on a friend this afternoon and he said to me "So, still eating raw foods?" and I told him that I have to or I will go back to being all cranky and depressed. He has known me since I was 16 so no further explanation was needed. I added that I'm so happy now, why would I change?

It was a moment for me as I was able to say this with no defensive feelings at all. No worry about reprisals or judgement. So nice in comparison to the last time he asked. I came out with everything I'd read in books about why raw and testimonials etc. This time I just told my experience as positively as I could. Awesome!

So a great day. I looked back at my old journal the other day and just read a page here and there and I'm so glad that I wrote it. I can look back and see that I have changed so so much! It would be so easy to cry for all the lost years when I was so depressed and just wanted to die most of the time. But you know, if I hadn't been in that head space then I might not have the same hubby and the same kids. So I'm truly grateful for all the hardship I put myself through.

I'm so lucky to have had the life I've had. There's been no physical abuse in my home growing up, only one truly disastrous relationship with the one who was probably my greatest teacher in my early 20's but apart from that my exes have been lovely.

Life is wonderful. I feel very peaceful tonight. Very calm.

It's so nice!

Enough ramble.

xoxoxoxo

Don't you wish the healing process was all merry and fun since it's such a good thing?  That's what is such a paradox!  But, it's so great that you are clearing out such ick--Good for you to stick with it!  I had major stress pour out of me last week, and I didn't turn to cooked food for possibly the first time when this extreme intensity hit me, so I know I am stronger than I ever have been before, and something in me knew to get the deeper issues out of my body--yay to us!

Much love,
Theresa

Hey Theresa, That's wonderful news. Hugs and kudos to you on where you are right now. You are an example to me of someone keeping their eye on their goals no matter what they are doing or going through. You are an inspiration to me! Thank you for sharing.

Frangi I'm so glad you are enjoying Alissa's book. I adore mine. It's the one book I will not lend out because I reference it so often.

I'm feeling sooooo tired today. After the pot luck yesterday and being up having the most profound conversations I didn't get to sleep until nearly one and had amazing dreams once I was there! But I feel fulfilled in a terrific way.

I went out with Caitlyn and I today for some 'special time' and on the way home was drawn to the Carrara Markets. I nearly didn't go because I don't like it there but decided to go with it. Why? Because I've had a hankering for a ring. In my minds eye I had a picture of a moonstone ring set in silver that would fit on the ring finger of my right hand. When I got to the stall there was no moonstone there. I was disappointed as I thought I had felt greed or something else and had read my intuition incorrectly.

But then I saw this ring... tucked away in the corner of the cabinet and my heart sang! It's a quartz, some kind of quartz that has gold flecks through it. Tear drop shape in silver. It fits my finger perfectly and cost exactly the amount that I had in my purse. Perfect! Amazing ring.

Caitlyn and I had a great time. For the first time she didn't need to release anything from the past and we chatted easily like long term friends which was so awesome and wonderful! "How lucky am I?" I thought.

Oh! And also this morning I went to the Nerang markets and found a little stall with organic Australian olives! I got three different sorts. They are not there all year around because they don't have enough trees to do a full harvest to last all year around so they just sell what they have and then rest until the next season! The man selling was a gorgeous Italian and his wife who was Australian, or at least she had an Australian accent  man who kept calling me darling so I really felt at home. Tee hee. I love the Italian accents. Such a sweetie.

Anyhoo... my post is a little disjointed so I apologise for that! But it gets the general feeling of what is happening in my life across I think!

xoxoxo