My personal goals for 2008 are:
To become less frightened of a deep conversation. To know that I can understand them and contribute.
I need to bring some clarity here. This is what I get for posting late at night with little thought. I am actually more concerned about keeping up with conversations here on the forum. There are so many posts that fly over my head! In person or on the phone I am much better with them. I have very deep talks with people, friends and strangers mostly... not really one for sharing with my family.
Except maybe my sister... we have a kind of solidarity.
Going back to one of my other goals.... gratitude. Last night was a noisy night in our street which is really strange. I have a neighbour who I think has more problems that anyone could poke a stick at but even she was quiet last night.
We had hoons in our street! I don't think we have ever had that before. But from about 1 until around 3.30 they were racing their cars in our street and another street until I heard the familiar skid and muffled pop of a car accident. Then it went quiet. Then a neighbours dog started barking at 4 and other neighbours were out there yelling "Shut your blinding dog up for expletives sake" which is also really unusual. Normally if a dog barks... it barks for one night and that's it. No one says anything! Very exiting.
So anyhow, the sun was starting to rise and I had dozed intermittently from around 1 until the car accident. Then I was wide awake! I knew I needed sleep but I was too tightly wound so I consciously decided to remove my thoughts from what had happened and thoughtless people to what I was grateful for. That's the last I recall until 7am when I sprang out of bed alive and full of beans and ready to hit the markets... yeah!
Exercise, well I couldn't walk this morning because Bill was already gone to the working bee at the archery club and I really just like to walk alone. So I hopped on the rebounder for a minute at a time for around 10 minutes all up which I was more than happy with.
I'm going to take Bella for a walk soon also. So exercise is a go. I was having a big chat with Caitlyn yesterday about things we believe that are no longer true and through this discussion I discovered that I was still holding on to a belief that I would not be liked if I was not good at sport. So I've never played it! Comes from primary school... no more needs to be said there. I don't think I will ever be a team sports person but I would love to become fit.
Why? Because I have read a lot of autobiographies and biographies and articles, and I've watched a lot of people and I think you can be fit, but not healthy, and I think you can be healthy but not fit. I believe that physically, health and fitness are two separate things entirely although they may merge from time to time. I would like to be more balanced here.
This time last year, I was only concerned with staying thin... now I want to be thin and strong. Lithe is a good word that springs to mind!
Mental fitness is a goal as well. And balance should be there! Oh boy without that then there will be no point to the rest of it. I could end up healthy, fit and crackers without that!
John, Rowdy, Waterberry, Sacha, KLR, Les, thank you all for your words. I love coming back to a crowd!
Sacha, did you get my message?
Eve you just posted! I'll have to hit send to see what you said! Yaaaaaaaaaaay for larfing! Hot cross buns...
Here is my pic of the day....
Appropriate? I think so....
xoxoxo