Yeah, we can do that.  Do you have a big back yard/acerage? Coz you know, I have a group of unschooling friends who would probably want to do this. Maybe we can do two workshops, one with you and one with my unschooling groups. PM me.
This is going to be exciting!

Hey Jen,  thanks for sharing your journey.  Glad to hear you're feeling better.  Take time for yourself and be gentle with you.

Love the idea of a raw kids workshop. 

love,
NRM ~ A

Have popped in to say I love you, and I hope it's not just your feet that are happy

*popping out again to go back to bed* LOL

Hi Annette, I am taking time out for myself this weekend. I'm meeting up with some gorgeous raw families tomorrow for a little meet and on Saturday I plan on being as horizontal as I can all day except for a walk in the morning and a tramp workout in the afternoon. 

Luuuurve and hugs roight back atcha RGG. Mwah! 

Sanga I love you too. Thx for that! Hope you enjoyed your sleep. This Tuesday night for sure ok?

Sunnyone... it would be great if Miriam and Rabbit came along too. Lets get in touch with them.

I was thinking today about what I've just put myself through. When I was on my downer I said that I just couldn't pull myself out of it. I was constantly talking over the top of the negative voices with positive stuff that I couldn't really bring myself to feel. I felt like a failure because I couldn't shake it in a few hours. In fact I couldn't shake it in a few days. I'd say I was truly down for about 5-7 days. Blerk. And you know, that's an amazingly short amount of time for me.

When I used to get like that all the time, I used to be like that for months! So perhaps all the talk did some good after all.

Feeling much better today again. Not my normal bouncy self. Still foggy and sometimes disconnected but even keeled and I even cracked a few funnies! LOL. I thought they were funny anyhoo...

I have learned that being creative is really important to me. It doesn't matter what I'm doing. I can use it as a reward at the end of a day of doing stuff that I really don't like. The last few days I've done what has to be done until 4, which I mostly really like. Don't get me wrong, but I don't looooooove a lot of it. It's just got to be done. Matter of fact. But at the end of the day I gave myself some time to do what I really adored! And I lost myself in it and got heaps done.

Anyhow, it's a good lesson to learn.

I got to speak to an amazing person today. I've been asking for a teacher for a long time and I think I've got one. He is coming here next week and I can't wait. I feel deep seated emotions when I talk to him and he is so open and loving that I can't hide it. I think that both Bill and I will learn a lot from this wonderful man and hopefully he will learn from us too.

Enjoy your evening or day all. Depending on when you are reading this.

Love Jennie

xoxoxox

Oh really! I had no idea. I was thinking about finishing this journal as it feels so negative so thank you for saying that. Hugs!

xoxoxo

Not negative just honest. We cant always help how we feel especially when emotional detox rears its ugly head. I would actually say your journal is very positive, I know it's shown me that no matter how we feel there is always a good day waiting around the corner.

Another thing that I've noticed is that no matter what you are going through you always learn something even more brilliant and beautiful about yourself.

You come out on top how can that be negative??

RR xx

Hey Jungle, that's a great idea. I used to do that but then I got rid of a lot of the other stuff and the raw stuff got spread out and then it all got mixed up! LOL.

Hi RR. Thx for that. It does feel negative though. I feel like I'm always whinging whinging! But I'm more positive than I was. Hugs!

Hey Free, it's funny how others see us so differently from ourselves isn't it? If I had filled out a questionnaire asking me if I thought I was tough, confident, resourceful etc I would have put no to all of them! However, I would have agreed that I am unaware of my own power. Frightened of it even.

I've bought myself  a pressie. Called "The Power Of Now" by Eckhart Tolle. My mum told me to buy this book about 7years ago but because it came from Mum there was no way! Then I was totally floored when out of the blue Grant (AKA RawAussieAthlete whom I adore) recommended it to me. Then, a couple of months ago I dreamed I was reading it. That was when I was ordering a load of RP books and so I ordered a few specials for me as well!

The Power was one of them. It's an amazing book. On the very first page I was floored by his description of his old self. It was like he had looked inside my head and described how I felt about myself.

So I'm going through the book. Interesting. I won't document a lot of it here because of what John said a few months back about me 'scattering my energies in a way that's almost deliberate'. I've found that I've been getting answers much quicker and from myself by keeping things to myself. Asking myself 'how' and just leaving it.

Of course I talk about things that get really stressful with Bill and a few close trusted friends but mostly I'm just trying to rely on and trust myself a little more. It's interesting.

That being said, I'm off the challenge. I decided last night that I had had enough for this one. I'm really pleased with how I went. 56 days is just a few days short of double my days raw last time. So that's great. I can double it again next time!

So why did I end it? Because I was miserable! And because there was not one raw thing I wanted to eat. Nuts, Seeds, Crackers, Ice-Cream, Fruits, Salads, etc. Just the thought if it all turned my stomach. The thought of being that way for the next 40 days was just too blerky to imagine! So I had a cooked meal last night. I won't say what because I don't want to set off any cravings but I tried my old trick of eating so much I felt ill and it didn't work. I just got really full and was slightly dehydrated this morning.

But you know what else? I'm totally into my raw food again today. No cravings, no down side, just keep on chugging. Wonderful!

So the next challenge will be interesting.

At the moment I'm a little confused. The challenge has left me with a few questions. But I'm not ready to find the answers yet. I'll write them down and look at them in depth later.

Benefits from the challenge were:

Learning accountability. Wow, I would have been eating cooked in the first week if it weren't for the challenge!
Now I know I can do nearly two months raw!
I'm comfortable ordering a salad in a cafe or restaurant now.
Nails strong
Body skin soft

Things that need addressing:

Light patches on my forearms like vitiligo. Very small right now but like little white freckles.
Fruit... I crash when I eat it. Breakfast is fine but anything after 11am and I'm gone. Have a GS and want to sleep for hours.
Fat roll around lower belly... unfun! But I'm grateful that I didn't throw away all the shorts that were falling off at the end of last summer.

Thanks for all the support everyone. What a loving and generous place this is!

xoxoxoox