Such an interesting week I've had...I thought I was ready to let go of some belief systems that are not so good for me, but no way was that happening, instead I hung onto them like a small child clinging to their mother.   

Yesterday I happened to pick up a book that explained exactly how to change these beliefs - but there's one catch.  I have to actually DO it...not just read about it LOL.  So last night with the beautiful rain pouring on the roof I lay awake in the darkness and examined my life from a new perspective.  And when I did sleep I had the most intriging dreams, and the follow-on from that has been an amazing creative process that fills me with joy. 

I've been stuck in a few areas of my life, had plenty of options but nothing that really grabbed me.  Now I am inspired, I can see and feel my new directions and I can't wipe the smile off my face.  Finally this feels right....and my friends wonder why I've been dragging my feet on these projects. 

A few weeks ago I was talking with 2 women and one asked me what my goals were.  I trotted out the same story I've had for about a year, which my ex b/f had shared also.  When I finished the other woman said "did you know you were frowning the whole time, is this really what you want?" Hmmm, not any more, so I let it go and created the space for my new goals to materialise.

So today will be spent cleaning up and reorganising my workspace, firing up the cauldren and my imagination together ~ something sacred is about to be born. 

I had such a big breakthrough this morning ~ I've realised why I'm stuck with my business....yeah me!!


OMG, it is such a relief to recognise this.  Belief systems are so strong, but so easy to change. 

going out for a raw dinner tonight, gotta go   

Gosh Sanga, you ARE remarkable! I've not met someone so loving and giving in an age! You have become very special to me in such a short amount of time and I find you attractive in many ways. If I were not married... and into women I would definitely go there!

xoxoxo

Tonight I had my first practice session with a great bunch of girls - we've formed a women only drumming troupe  

Tomorrow I meet up with a dear friend that I haven't seen for a year or two.  He's really sweet, and helped me through some difficult times.  We keep in touch with the occasional email and phone call, but he called me last week and begged to see me, saying he really missed me, awww.  And he gives sensational hugs.  Thinking about that I have something planned for every day this week to make my heart sing...nice. 

Sending my resume off to a few places tomorrow.....should be putting the finishing touches to it tonight but have become hooked on youtube instead.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RLzQeN98Yg4&feature=relatedI have soooo much energy.........must be the couple of heads of broccoli I downed earlier LOL. 

Still winter, still raw, still loving it.     

hey with furry pants i too would laugh at winter,lol  enjoy!!

This week I investigated a few paid work options. . . . . nothing.  Oh the jobs are out there, but I'd have to compromise myself and my beliefs to work in these situations.  And I've seen lots of jobs for food companies, but they promote foods I no longer eat, and I don't want to be a part of that. 

One lady told me I was in the wrong industry LOL.  I guess she didn't like it when I challenged her, I told her flat out that I didn't work with dangerous chemicals.  I read a report years ago that said beauty therapists had one of the highest rates of ovarian cancer.  I had to leave the last salon I worked in because I became allergic to something.....don't know what exactly, maybe the boss heehee. 

There's a niche out there with my name on it, and I feel so calm and clear about pursuing this avenue ~ this is what makes my heart sing.  I had a consult today with a fellow practioner and she made up a magical remedy for me, it's spot on, just what I need now.

I'm loving the energy right now, the moonlight was shining in my bedroom window at the exact time of the full moon. . . .magical times ahead LOL.  I even wrote a poem last night, it's for a special person so I won't post it here, but I must say it was pretty good, and very well received *Purr Purr*

You'll find the right vocation for you. I know it! I'd love to see the furry pants. lol
xoxo