It's great that you and your mum can shop together. I was enjoying my salads with some steamed veges when the cold snap hit here. Brrr. But then one day I just didn't want them anymore. If I want them again badly enough I'll have some.

That ice-cream sounds phenomenal. I'm really looking forward to the warmer weather to try that one out! Thanks for the idea.

xoxoxoxo

Thanks for the healing vibes angie 

Ooh that sounds encouraging raw sensation that one day you just didnt want them, hope that happens to me, thats awesome.

Umm, the lasagne recipe, now i cant remember how i did it. Ill write it down next time i make it and take a pic to post.

Feeling much better today than i have been, did some exercise, was up a bit earlier than i have been, and have managed to get a few things done, yay!!! 

I bought some quinoa to try, never had that before, i thought i might sprout some and add some spices and a bit of lightly stir fried caulies and peas.

My belly is still a bit unsettled, not getting any pain or problems, just a bit unsettled and clearly still having a bit of trouble digesting everything. Hopefully the probiotics will have that fully fixed soon, it gets better every day.

Thanks RawGreenGoddess 

I noticed last night i had some roo kebabs with salad, and i enjoyed the salad heaps, but didnt really like the meat, felt kinda weird in my mouth, havent had that before. I also felt unusually full and heavy, i really didnt like the feeling, i always think i want to feel 'full', but last night wasnt the kind of full i was aiming for.

Today too i woke up and didnt want a hot drink at all, didnt even want food, just wanted to exercise. So i did, felt great and had a delicious brekky, the 'cereal' i like to make with grated apple, orange juice, banana, cinamin, and this time i added some chia seeds for extra goodness, yum. Was very filling, satisfying and delicious.

Just had some peanuts, not sure if ill buy peanuts again, these ones say raw but every time i eat peanuts the back of my teeth where my wisdom teeth were hurt, other nuts dont do it, not sure what thats about, but i think my next lot of nut purchasing wont include them.

Im sleeping alot better again, but i have also been taking valerian, still going to bed let, getting up late, but im waking up feeling rested the last few days, and i feel as if the sleep is deep.

I feel like im making progress again by adding back in the probiotics and olive leaf extract, but im a little put out by the fact that i need them. Maybe once im healthy i wont, i had strongly believed that a really good diet would mean i wouldnt need probiotics, coz my tummy would be healthy just by my practices, but maybe i have to reach optimum health first before thats the case. Maybe it is the case if 100% without doing anything wrong.

I still cant get past my decaf coffee thing, i know its emotional attachment that has me doing it. The funny thing is i am drinking less hot drinks, but as soon as im socialising i easily drink alot of them, and usually the worst ones. I even had a real coffee a few days ago, made me jittery, i didnt like the feeling. I guess all in good time hey. At least ive improved on the tea front, i very rarely go to a black tea anymore, usually i have white or green, and mostly i have herbals, usually only having one reg tea in a day. Still, am concerned the hot drinks are hindering my digestion, but its something i find very hard to break out of, i guess at least the tea isnt so bad, it always 'feels' soothing, but i doubt the decaf is helping.

 I felt really energised after mini-tramping this morning, very clear headed, so have decided tomorrow im going to do that first thing, have brekky, and tackle an online exam i have to do then when my head is really clear.

I tried to talk hubby into having a smoothie for brekky last night, asked if i got up early and made it for him if hed have it, and i got the response that he would but its a drink its not food. I couldnt believe it, he just cant get past the idea that if its blended its not food no matter what it is. So i asked what if a potato went into it, apparently still a drink. Also argued that milk was a drink and i maintained it was food, lol. Funny how differently people see things. So i think if im every to get him to try more raw, it would never be through smoothies, its funny coz the smoothies are what drew me in to to the raw scene.

I keep going to mixes of dried fruit and nuts in the arvo, i think its the cold weather. I really had no idea how hard a cold winter was going to be on raw, ive seen it said alot, but i dont think its really hit home till ive experienced it. Cant wait for summer, can exercise in shorts, eat yummy salads and ice cream in the sun..........(mmmm daydreams, hehe).

Anyways, just wanted to let you all know that tonight im having a big salad for dinner coz thats exactly what i feel like, i guess i am making progress after all!

Am having some mild detox symptoms atm, sniffly nose sometimes, sneezing a bit, but at this level i dont mind at all knowing its doing good.

take it with you Jen most def...

Kebbs isnt it amazing how clean and light we feel eating raw,and then something like you having the kebabs...just feels alien....ohh our bodies are so clever....

its most def a mind and body link,so powerful.....

Ive reached a turning point, all of a sudden all those cooked food cravings are starting to loose their appeal.

I realised i reached this when having brekky out sunday morning i looked at my poached eggs cooked brekky and just wasnt that impressed, normally im heaps impressed, but apart from the sundried tomatoes and smoked salmon the whole brekky was ordinary, weird coz normally i would have loved it. What proved that ive made a turning point is when i looked across at a mates fruit on toast my mouth watered looking at the fruit and i wished id ordered fruit.

Its like ive needed to go back to some cooked food to realise how good raw is. Probs a normal thing to do, and now im so glad ive done it.

Ive just survived a weekend away in canberra, amazing really since friday night before we left i couldnt sleep, and got around 2hrs after 5am (was an awful night). So by rights i should have been flattened by the lack of sleep, i was exhausted but somehow i was still ok. Ive learnt something really important, no matter what every day must start with exercise. Ive discovered that a bit of stretching first thing doesnt make me have a better day but it does make me pick up faster to get going, what would take me several hours to feel ok and functioning only takes half an hour with some light morning yoga.

This worked wonders while away, its the first time ive ever done yoga in a hotel room, i only needed to do 5mins to overcome morning nausea, ease body aches, and clear my head.

So from now on every morning im doing around 10mins of yoga in the bedroom, ive brought my mat into the bedroom so i can do it straight up. Then once im done around 10mins on the mini tramp. Ive yet to be able to exceed these times, since its first thing, but its really helping.

Things are defo on the up again, despite not feeling too great of late, i am making big inroads again. After a full weekend away im ok, i should be wrecked and recovering, and while i am tired and not achieving alot, im also far from sick. Yesterday had some bad brain fog, but today its gone and ive been able to work on my assignment (finally!).

Im getting up earlier, yesterday was up at 11, and today 1045. I know that sounds late, but when im not well its anywhere from 12 onwards. Getting up earlier easier is always a good sign of my health.

I ordered some fruit and veg today, too big boxes, not organic, but because its not got alot more for my dollar. Is all really good stuff too, i think i might use this guy a bit more often, now that harris farm is shut it is actually cheaper to have him deliver my fruit than to go out to a fruit shop. And its all fresh straight from the markets that morning, you can tell too. I also now know how much 400gms of baby spinach is, lol, its alot! So with budget getting tighter and tighter im limiting my organic to grains, seeds, tea and whatever happens to be a bargain and getting most of my stuff from this guy. Its also meant i dont have to get out shopping for abit, which is great! Conserve my energy for other more important things.

I think ive finally beat the coffee thing too, ever since my decaf ran out i havent wanted it at all. Im having dandelion and chicory tea in the mornings but otherwise going to white or green tea (not even having black!) or other herbals occasionally. Feel really proud that i havent wanted a coffee, the true test will be out and about, but out on the weekend at opportunites i ordered tea and loved it, i found myself looking at cappucinos thinking how heavy and disgusting they look, in the past they have always been tempting, but now they seem kinda gross.

So glad my tastes are finally changing, cant wait for a raw diet to be no work at all.

Ive been thinking alot about my illness and when my health problems truly started, ive easily traced problems back to teenage years, but now am thinking it stems back much further than that.

My family has a really high incidence of autoimmune conditions, so i always had a high risk.

Thinking back to infancy my problems really started when i had cows milk the first time, got really severe constipation, close to needing to be hospitilised, cept mum worked out the problem and i was switched to goats and soy milk. First problem solved.

I had two big sisters who could have cows milk, so it was hard for mum to stop me drinking from their cups, eventually she realised i wasnt reacting so didnt stop me any more, that was apparently when i was around 4.

6yrs old, depigmentation of skin on my cheek, this resolved but still not a great sign.

Always really small, my romper room video, im half the size of all the other kids.

Cant say when it started, but have had white flecks on my nails a really long time, they lessen with good diet. Worst in my teenage years.

At 14, developed morning nausea, would throw up every morning, eventually stopped eating breakfast. Same age had glandular fever, took a few months to get back to normal.

Around 15 or 16 got bad sinus problems, was getting repeated infections, seen an allergy specialist, went on an elimination diet, got better.

I discovered i had endometriosis a year later, was very sick at the time, missed alot of school. Treated with hormones, got better.

From then on was never great, at uni was often tired, by 3rd year couldnt cope with working and studying at the same time, gave up working. Took several months off after uni, about 5 in total as i needed a break (in my early 20s, thats ridiculous to need a break).

Started working fulltime, never coped, rotating rosters killed me, 6mths in got so sick had a full 2 weeks off laid up with a mystery virus that sapped all my energy, so sick couldnt even do dishes. Recovered, but no longer accepted any overtime. At the end of a year fulltime, worked casual, chose night shift coz i could cope better than rotating, already showing signs of adrenal fatigue functioning better at night, sleeping in the day. Still young yet couldnt keep up with women 3 times my age, could never work more than 4nights in a row, max 7 a fortnight.

Year and a half in, got real sick with endo again, debilitated by pain, had to give up nursing, worked part time only.

Fatigue got worse and worse, but i battled on, pushed myself really hard, took years to be bedridden but the fact is, it wasnt sudden, this was coming on since high school.

Scary stuff for me when i look back at it all, but, this is good to think about. Realising how long ive been sick, i am more proud of the improvements ive made in the last year. I also am more realistic now on how long its going to take me to heal, i think im looking at years, ive been sick for so long, this was never going to be a fast recovery.

So faith back in raw foods, they have gotten me this far, they will get me all the way 

Im going to try harder to keep up my GS daily, i easily fall out of the habit, must keep it up.

Have been miss super grouchy today, its like pms except its midcycle, weird. Its very hormonal, have been warning people im in a mood before i snap, is so bizarre. Wonder how long it will take before i stop getting any hormonal swings. Maybe i need to try some maca or something, or maybe go back on the vitex for a bit. Will have to have a think.

Thanks Carmel, am glad dinner worked out so well for you, its great when you score like that isnt it.

Well, have been up and down, really sick again today, but had a really good day yesterday.

Hey Keb :-)

I used to take the digestive enzymes as well but then I just realised I needed to reduce the complicated combo's to improve my digestion which now has led to eating predominantly mono meals, I don't discipline myself anymore I just prefer to eat this way.  Maybe try to simplify your meals a little more? I have come back from very serious digestive problems where I experienced massive ulcers down my throat all to do with the foods & combo's I was consuming prime eg is the date, egg, banana smoothie..(sorry:-)
I've noticed in the past when I ate Tahini that was cooked & raw tahini there was a big difference, the cooked version is quite addictive whereas the raw one was not & didn't taste as nice. If you want better digestion I would suggest not mixing fats & sweet fruit (like tahini, honey, sultanas), acid fruits like citrus go much better :-)

Hey Im sure your photo is beautiful, we are always more critical of ourselves.
mmm blueberries xx