Ive been great last two days, having real genuine energy i dont remember feeling in a really long time. Yesterday i felt so well i spent hours cleaning and reorganising the kitchen benches, i just kept going and going without a thought, it wasnt till id been going hours that id realised what id done, and i only realised when i started to feel a bit tired.

So, im very very impressed with the success of this diet, how ive been the last two days have been incredible, i feel well enough to return to work, but scared im not stable enough yet to do so. So, im just enjoying the energy i get when i get it, and waiting for when theres more stability to my health before i return to work.

Today however im not so good, by my old standards this would probably be a reasonably good day, but compared to yesterday a huge relapse. Despite being unwell though i still managed to do a big fruit shop (desperately needed). I bought alot, because i need to learn to make bigger dinners, im atm making my dinner meals the same size as they used to be cooked, and thats my undoing, hubby is complaining his still hungry after every meal, and i end up cooking him garlic bread or something not so optimal to go with it.

Ive decided to do a short smoothie fast, just today until tomorrow dinner. It means i can cook hubby something seperate and satisfy his cooked food and cheese cravings, and will hopefully speed up healing a bit. It feels a good time to do it since today i dont at all feel like solid food. I like my foods whole so i figure smoothies are a good way to start, im no where near ready to do any other sort of healing fast, and am not sure my body would cope anyway.

I know i havent had nearly enough today, but havent felt up to consuming much. Had a blended salad when i got up with tomato, sprouts, lettuce and carrot, and a small amount of sesame seeds. Delicious actually, was surprised how satisfying that was. Ive just made a big smoothie of watermelon, bananna, strawberry and some flax seeds to slowly work through this afternoon. Ive decided to add the seed fats in this because my fat cravings atm can be pretty nasty, so i figure its better to have some, i clearly need them atm.

I found myself questioning continuing this today, it suddenly seemed so hard, i think it was just the realisation that my hubby is addicted to cooked food. But it was short lived, and i got home and made my smoothie and couldnt understand where that questioning came from.

Ive realised if the meals were a bit heavier he wouldnt want the cooked foods so much, my problem is my appetite is so poor its hard for me to judge his needs. So have planned some heavier meals im pretty sure i can make larger portions of.

On monday night, i slept the best ive slept in a really long time, solid deep sleep, went to bed early and slept for 12hrs, and woke up feeling rested and rejuvinated. Normally i wake up no matter how long ive slept as if id only slept a few hours. Id had a higher amount of fats that night, normally fats make me feel icky, but it felt very satisfying and to have slept so soundly after maybe shows i do need to be including more fats than i have been, at least at night.

Im using instinct atm, and its working well for me, im having exactly what i feel like when i feel like it, and its making everything i consume incredibly satisfying. Monday night i craved fats and they helped me sleep, today i strangely didnt want anything sweet when i got up, so had the blended salad, ive tried these in the past and hated them, but today i couldnt imagine having consumed anything more divine. Our bodies really know what there doing if we only take the time to listen, i just wish it didnt take me so many years to work that one out.

Well my period is here yet again, its been a month where i havent taken any supplements or herbs and have used diet alone as my therapy. Ive been really curious how this period would be without the herbs and im impressed. Its lighter than normal, and on day 1 the pain was intermittent and mild, i knew it was there but it didnt stop me carrying on. I still had the wiped out nauseas feeling i always have on day 1 so took it pretty easy, but at no point was the pain bad so its definitely an improvement. The diet really is working for me.

I didnt end up having the greek salad because i didnt shop, but i did have poached eggs, and on the weekend i had some cooked eggs on the bbq. We put on a brekky for in laws, i made a big platter of fruit, and a jug of fresh squeezed juice, all of it got demolished, but it was such a cold morning and i felt awful when i got up, so the temptation for cooked was too much and i caved with the eggs. It didnt seem to make me feel any worse, but considering it was day 1 of my period that day, i doubt it was a good move. Im not beating myself up over it, i just enjoyed them, hopefully ill reach a point where im just not tempted at all. That night i had a lovely asian style salad with seaweed in it, made me feel so much better, i think i must have really needed the minerals, because after i had it the wiped out feeling went away.

Still otherwise going strong on the diet and learning more and more. I sprouted lentils, my first sprouts ever today, was so proud of myself, i went and showed them off to hubby, lol, he didnt seem as impressed as i was. So now im trying with chickpeas, and see if i can be as successful with them. Made a curry salad with the lentils, but hubby hated it and ended up having toast, so now i have plenty of leftovers for lunches. I used coconut oil on it, and thats what he hated, he really hates the taste of coconut, ive used it before in cooking, but clearly used too much this time for him, will have to be more careful in future using it.

Ive broken my blender about a week ago and have been making do with a hand held blender, but ive been using it so much and working it too hard, and now have burnt out the motor on that one. So again down to no blender! I cant keep replacing my cheap blenders every few months when i keep breaking them. I dont know if its time to bite the bullet and buy a good vitamix so i wont keep breaking them, or if i should just accept that im hopeless with blenders and by rights should never own one. My blender was only from christmas time when i broke the last one, argh!!!

Ive borrowed my mothers juicer, but considering the hand held blender i wrecked was hers am not sure i should use it, lol. Ive also borrowed her mortar and pestle, so maybe with that and the juicer i can somehow make do for now until i decide what to do about my blender dilemma.

ooooh I'm with you on the fruit and nut balls! I have been doing the same, when my sweet toothe strikes!
Just wish I had a food processor, I chopped it all by hand last night argh!

Thankyou for sharing your journey, its inspiring and I am looking forward to knowing my body, as much as you seem to know yours!

Love,
Beau xo

Been going really well on raw, coping with more and more.

Unfortunately ive now overdone it and have had to take it easy today, i slept 14hrs last night, went to bed at 7pm and just crashed.

Had been going so so good, my mother in law even told me she would eat her words about the diet (she doesnt approve) if it works, she was clearly impressed with progress she could see.

Yesterday went to watch in law use his gift we gave him for a V8 race day, woke up feeling terrible, but slowly picked up, and by the time we got there i felt fine. So i went down to the pits to see him get in the car. What a massive mistake, 5mins around the fumes and i could feel myself crashing faster than id ever crashed before.

Feel so stupid that i didnt consider what the fumes would do to me, i should have known better. I moved quickly so i wasnt as close to the cars, but by then the damage was done and was wrecked all day. Made me feel so sick so i barely ate at all yesterday, two pears, some dried fruit and nuts. I had a celtic sea salt bath when i got home and went straight to bed.

Hopefully ill pick back up fast.

Thanks berrybliss, yeah i did feel better shortly after. A days resting and the next day i was fine, in fact had some really good days in a row.

Unfortunately overdone it again over the weekend so not such a great day today.

Am beginning to suspect cold weather makes my fatigue alot worse, as if the cold weather makes my immune system work that little bit harder enough to make me feel really unwell, hmmmm, is an issue i need to learn to deal with.

Taken to having fresh ginger tea of late, has been really warming, much more satisfying than black, and using it im going to black tea less and less, so yay for me, less caffeine. Also interestingly i seem to be eating more since i started having it. Yesterday i sat for 40mins when i was out and ate constantly for that time, lol id feel like a pig cept it was all raw healthy food.

Im considering trialling some non vegan options back in my diet, starting with raw goats milk, to see if it helps or harms. Im starting to think long term might be good to have things like that occasionally, not as a standard, but just for variety. Seems a good time to trial it, am also thinking later of trying raw honey rather than maple syrup, but unsure of what brand to go for. Need to do it one at a time but, honey was a no no on my endo diet, so it could cause probs.

Will have to wait and see.

Loving berries atm, wish they were cheaper.

Well i survived work, the whole 1 hour, lol, one client wasnt home (community work) so i didnt have much to do. Still felt good to do it, to achieve something, contribute to society. Really want to be able to keep up work for the routine more than anything, i feel the routine will be good for me and help me recover. Unfortunately after working i did crash once i got home, but i recovered within a reasonable period of time.

Forgetting work, its that time of the month again, comes so fast it seems, lol. I dont feel particularly fond of being a woman atm. Its again light, and only had mild pains on day 1, but i still yet again am greatly affected by it. I think now its no longer endometriosis problems, but just the havoc the hormone changes have on my cfs. Its not good enough to me that i should be so greatly affected by my cycle, its one thing to feel a little tired, its another thing to feel so wiped out once a month, it feels like i take massive backward steps every time and spend the other 3 weeks fixing the damage. I know im making progress but its disheartening to be set back so regularly, it really slows down my healing.

Im again not sleeping well, having trouble falling asleep and sleeping in late. I feel like im falling into a bad cycle again. I wont let it happen, i wont go backwards.

Ive decided that i need green smoothies back in my diet, i feel like i could be doing better and that green smoothies are the key to achieving that. So since im poor, im just going to purchase another cheap stick blender to use for the time being, i figure if it breaks after a few months its no big deal since they are so cheap. Smoothies were what got me started on this, and when i was having them i was doing better, walking frequently, sleeping better, im sure they help balance hormones which is exactly what i need right now.

Anyway enough sad sack sook stuff, lol, alliteration (hmmm is that how you spell it? My sisters an english teacher she wouldnt be impressed, lol)

Made my first yummy raw soup tonight, have made one early in, but it didnt work that well and i tossed it. This one was delicious, pumpkin soup, and was lovely to have something warm for once, i dont feel i need food warm often, but it was nice for a change.

To make it i juiced half a butternut pumkin, added back in the squishy pulp (not all of it, some of it wasnt that squishy), mashed in an avo, added enough water till it was the consistency i wanted, added some chopped parsley, dill, and chives (not alot, just enough to enhance). Was soooooooooooo yummy, i heated up the bowls with kettle water first, so when we picked up the bowl it warmed up our hands. Made a green salad to go with it and hubby told me it was the strangest dinner id done yet, lol.

Was really bloated tonight (oops sad sack stuff, lol ill keep it brief), suspicious of the pumpkin, have noticed i bloat after more difficult to digest veges, am concerned my digestion isnt quite up to the challenge of all foods raw, have noticed it with brocolli too. Im unsure if maybe some veges are better eaten lightly steamed, but am just keeping foods like that to a minimum for the time being and hopefully my body will adjust and start digesting all foods well in time. If not, i may have to have the odd bit of cooked for the benefits of foods like brocolli, will have to see, no decision on that one yet.

I tried sprouting yellow split peas a few days ago, but not all of them sprouted! Some went all white and icky so i tossed the lot. Hmm, was dissapointed, meant the produce wasnt quality i guess, or maybe split legumes arent a good idea for sprouting. Is a shame i have heaps of them, used to use them alot to cook dahl, maybe ill just have to cook them up, am sure hubby wont complain about a dahl supply to himself, lol.

My constant yabbering about my fantastic diet has influenced someone, my mother is now including more raw foods and is working on changing her diet slowly to high raw. She rang me today to tell me about her big fruit shop and how she ate 7 pieces of fruit today and surprisingly felt better. Shes been really off of late, tired alot so she was impressed to feel well.

My mother has a copy of fit for life, so ive decided to borrow it and read it, ive noticed alot of people seem to have been influenced by this book and its got me really curious. Id especially like to read it to learn more about food combining.

I tried to make a sweet today, with carob and honey, and almonds, coconut oil. I used too many almonds and its crumbly, but it does taste nice, a little like chocolate crackles. I felt a bit sick after eating some though, im not used to eating high fat anymore and it seemed to sit badly in my stomach. I dont think ill make it often.