The promised pizza recipe:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c4aN2Z308J8
 

Why am I so undecided? I don't know why. Can't decide ha ha. I don't have as much time for posting as before, due to my maths and music activities. On one hand I appreciate having sort of holiday from the raw foods. Well, sort of, because I still eat them (can't help it), just do not spend as much time around the topic. I will confess that sometimes I even think that it is good for me not to think too much about food. I feel more relaxed not being so obsessed with it. On the other hand, when I come here and see everyone's beautiful energy, then I want to be immersed in it again. And I do want to keep growing (and not let the coffee habit consume me again, for example). Even though sometimes I feel like giving up altogether (I have a long history of this ha ha, feeling like giving up altogether from time to time, well at least each time inventing new reasons for it). So, how to find a perfect balance between being obsessed and being run over by the cooked food truck? I don't know. Can't decide. Ha ha.

I love your youtube vids Gosia...thankyou for sharing em!...which one do I love the most?...hmmm cant decide!

I am one of those obsessors to...just try to keep it simple...then I cant go too wrong.

Hope your havin a great day

Love Berry
XXX

Beautiful post Gosia. We need space, otherwise, how will we make mistakes? How will we learn if we don't make mistakes?

Bless ya!

xoxoxo

Thank you for the sweet words. 

I spoke to my mum, who lives on the other end of the world, through a video (isn't it wonderful?) Skype today. She said at one point "I must say that you look really good". I guess I can be grateful to all the juicy fruit and vegies I've eaten since going raw. I guess perhaps I do not look as hagged as I should at my age. Phew. 

Yesterday I felt lazy and couldn't make myself to make a salad, but I still wanted some greens. So I took a bag of them and ate them just like that. I spend so much less time preparing food than I used to a few years ago when I cooked. Which is great, cause I have more time to do interesting things. Like reading posts on rawpleasure lol! 

I feel more relaxed too. Which I understand is more alkaline than being stressed. I do work on this. For example, when the kids argue in the car, I try not to frown and get all worked up, but instead think strategically, and look after my health and beauty.

yeah very interesting , we need space in order to learn lesson ,,, cause mistakes arent really mistakes just experiences in the light of wisdom hey...

i lately em thinking very much at the Native American Indian Way of Living and on they way they used to be inter-connected with all things rather then separated from the Source... with Nature , Animals and People , with Sky and Earth , all was a Celebration of Life... the way they used to relate to all Living Things , including Food and Extended Family, was in part a (spiritual) Nutrition in the most pure and essential form in itself... they didnt had to bother 'that much' about finding the balance in their life cause balance already was present in their daily live and many life-forms surrounding them (they were aware of more realms)...

reason i say this is to evidence that it is partially hard *but not impossible*, to create and find balance in a so unbalanced society and world we are living... sometimes its just better to be aware of this and try not to find balance between the extremes we are living ,-- knowing thats its not us being unbalanced , rather the way we are living and whats surrounding us that is affecting us (especially as rawfoodist)... if we no longer seek balance , we may drop off this heavy burden of wanting to find balance (that may be impossible) and accept our alienation...,
its not lack of balance perhaps but rather a lack of Real Life underlying that we are craving in this Unreal World... so being aware may help...

in close contact with Nature - a nearly impossible thing nowadays with all the drum and noise , feeling the fresh pure stream of a Waterfall falling on us , going to sleep and watching the Star on the Sky , this alone is balance and abundance... we wouldnt have to bother that much automaticly of what to eat , when the fruits out there are dropping anyway from the trees in the various seasons hey?

but anyway here we are Gosia, and sincerely more than sometimes i feel like you hehe : not being overly obsessed-attached and on other side again not neglecting my physical body with unconscious food...

a fine line , and thin line...

all Love,
Iv
 

perhaps because you have such an analytical mind Gos...and you have been drawn to raw because it was a mental stimulation for you.something new and different?....you delved into raw complexities and turned it over and mulled it around your mind...now you have a handle on it...you are weary of it?yet know its the best way to live?

just thoughts...............

Jungle, no way, I would not mind that at all, I am utterly grateful (heart-melted), thanks so much for 'spoiling' my kidies, they handled the jar like a golden treasure! 

<<I think it is a common trait of women to be undecided.>>
I am not sure whether it is because I am a woman or a scientist. Can't decide. ?? 

<<be careful to not wander around never making a decision because that to is making a decision to be idle! >>
Very true! Now, I am sooo tempted to wonder about this for a while, analyze it from the scientific point of view and come up with an algorithm applying this very bright idea. See what I mean?

<<you are weary of it?yet know its the best way to live?>>
Yep, you spelled it out as it is, GGG (Genius GG). 

You are both right. I've been always like this. My high school teacher was probably the first person Ithat I remember to point this out to me, when she once met me around the time when we all got our tertiary degrees, and everyone else already had a job placement but me, as I was still deliberating about where was it I wanted to go. Interestingly, some time later, I made a sudden decision once I found a place I adored, and this was the great time of my life. So it seems that I deliberate a lot, but make sudden decisions as well, kinda like rare events simulation in a random environment method.  Similarly with raw, I had many encounters with raw, and then one day I read something (nothing extraordinary, some rubbish magaizne with a stupid article mentioning raw in it), thought what the heck and went for it.

Nevertheless, I must say I am noticing that something good is coming out of all that my pondering about raw. I seem to be far more relaxed about it (than say a year ago), happier in my life too, smiling more, and feeling like a lion about to pounce.

And, I am so grateful for having you lovely lovely ppls in my life.