Hey Carm, thats great to hear the foam boxes have worked, is great eating produce straight from your garden isnt it.

Lol subtlety indeed, lemon dates do sound nice, and i love the idea of the ginger jen.

Neet, hit the nail on the head, emotional emptyness, exactly.

This is a sad post, but i have to do it. I need some time away from here, actually i need time away from anything related to health. Ive become severely depressed this week, i know how crazy my feelings are but cant stop feeling them, and im realising i just have to ride it out and feel them.

I know raw food isnt at fault, but right now im resenting my diet and just want to rebel. Im actually resenting everything but am having very bitter feelings about all the work ive done to get better only to be back to square one. Im just tired, tired of trying so hard to get better, and right now i just dont want to try, i want to give up.

Knowing me, ill get back on the wagon, but right now i just need to not think about my health at all for a while, and this is one of the places i do that.

So, going against all that i know im just going to eat whatever i feel like for a while, hopefully with my focus off my health i can deal with some emotional issues that clearly need addressing. Im considering therapy, never thought id need it but i guess i have just had too much thrown my way and its all gone on too long. Ill miss you all but i think its the right thing to do right now, get my head together, work out what i truly want, maybe somehow truly get ok with my illness, it seems here to stay and i dont know how to deal with that.

Baby steps.

Thankyou all for all your support and for providing such a wonderful environment for me to hang online. Will be back sometime in the future.

xoxo

Hey Kebbster. I'll miss you but understand entirely. It's so easy to focus on diet and health to the exclusion of everything else. Good for you knowing what you need to do. You'll be welcomed back when you are ready.

xoxox